B: are we doing lunch or dinner?

J: dinner?

B: why not lunch?


then why ask me in the first place! ben ah ben....

some things.. are no longer special

oh well

it's the eve of the eve..

it's the wonderful time of the year...

when friends hang out.. to bitch.. to catch up.. to whine.. then again, we do that pretty often! made a din at Coffee Bean - Changi Airport but who cares.. we certainly didnt! :D

Date: 23 Dec 2005
Venue: Changi Airport Coffee Bean

my favourite Chai Latte. That's about the only thing i drink at Coffee Bean.. There's really nothing i like better than sipping a hot latte.. chilling at a joint.. with my loves... (still remember a night of chilling air + hot latte + yakking into the night at Genting *winks*)

nothing to snap except some coffee beans, a bunch of tables and chairs.. no hunks in sight *bummer*... so we went potrait snapping! that's the only nice things to snap (and that's US! :D)

so.. beauties ahead... ENJOY!

The Whiney aka Jane.. our profession JH *heh* cant diverge too many secrets here.. or i'd so get it.. Probably had taken a dozen shots of her cos she said no one can take a nice shot of her (it's a challenge i cant resist).. i tot this was pretty cute :)

our Teacher aka YY. The most accomplished one of us so far... at the tender age of 24, she has her own car!!! ahhhhh... i hate this woman! me? i dun even own my own bicyle.. haha!


gosh.. they look alike! TWIN TERRORS!!!


pouting.. sprouting philosphies (no lah, whining..) and giggles..


wow... SY looks good here! how did she manage to look so demure?!! *chuckles*

Then Jo and I went photo whoring!!!

LESBIANS!!!!


and our last pic of the day...
PONTIANAK!!!! RUNNNN!!!!!!!

and they all ran to Ju's house to seek refuge...
continued our night at my humble home.. watching DVD.. and then more yakking

when 5 women are together.. there's nothing but CHAOS!!!

we had fun! and again, my throat was a little hoarse the morning after

*grins*

CHRISTMAS EVE..
was spent the way Christmas should be celebrated. Went to church for their Christmas Eve service.. was lovely :) we then went off to Bliss Cafe at Punggol Park for some drinks, fingerfood and chit chatting... the place was awesome.. it's by the lake and with the candles twinkling, gentle breeze, was really like some romantic fairytale.. (and i love their chedder fries!) left just 30mins shy of midnight.. got home and we welcomed Christmas in a more spectacular way than popping party poppers *grin*

i've always believed Christmas should be spent in church, celebrating the birth of Jesus.. and spending time with your loved ones.. i love quiet Christmases... thoughtful and meaningful.

painting the town red? getting high and wasted? that's so ridiculous. A few years back.. i spent my christmas eve at a club.. everyone was drinking, dancing.. and all of a sudden it hit me.. "what the heck am i doing here?!" the countdown came.. everyone was shouting... singing.. all joyous... and i had the urge to yell at them: "do you even know what you are celebrating?!!! What are you so happy about?!!!" and what am i doing with a bunch of people who doesnt even care a hoot who Jesus is... what is Christmas to them? A chance to get high.. and wasted.. and be merry.. i felt awful.. told myself then i will never ever spend my Christmas eve clubbing. period.

dont get me wrong.. i've nothing against clubbing. In fact, we have plans to club this New Years' Eve. But never.. NEVER.. on Christmas eve. I feel sorry.. for people who doesnt know the essence of a celebration.. who just 'follow the crowd'

CHRISTMAS DAY..
comprises of our favourite activities... which are: sleeping.. eating and movies...!

Dinner: KENNY ROGERS'S Chicken with Honey Bourbon Sauce (it's mag!)
Movie: NARNIA!!!!!!! (at GV Grand - Big Screen!)

Narnia is good!!! followed the book to the 't'! but the battle scene is somewhat disppointing cos you cant help comparing with that of LOTR.. cos there are many similarities.. (CS Lewis and JR Tolkein are good friends fyi) i wish there were more animals, 'talking beasts' though.. guess that's part of the attraction.. a battle of animals instead of humans.. they used too many centaurs (humanlike).. but overall, thought it was good.. zack was kinda disappointed.. somehow expected more with all the huha.. hope they are making movies outta the other books as well..

i've got nothing to look forward to now.. sigh..

and oh.. HAPPY BOXING DAY folks!

for once..

i'm not psych to go shopping

the thought of jostling with the massive human traffic puts me off
2 more days to Christmas and i've not done my Christmas shopping
so i'd better get my sorry ass down to Orchard tonight

i'm weary... really weary
i need someone to talk to..
thank goodness there's David in the office to bitch with..
not so much of bitching as whining
cos my other 2 email kakis mia!

i'm so overwhelmed..
was almost on the verge of breaking down..
when i receive a very sweet msg from zack *smile*
funny how such things work
God is good.. all the time

and David trimmed his brows!
goodness gracious!!!

guess what i found?

BOVRIL!


remember how you used to have it with porridge when you were a kid?
was some flashback :)
and i found it at the baby food section at the supermarket
babyfood???

typed a long post about work
but deleted it off
it's far too depressing
not gonna whine

on a slightly cheerful note:
watched King Kong last night.. excellent movie.. Peter Jackson did it again.. but i wouldnt give it 5 stars cos it made me cry (my eyes are puffy i gotta wear specs to work today!) yes, thats how much i cried and zack's sleeve was damp after the movie! as i said before, i steer clear from movies that messes up my heartstrings.. i was so emotional after the movie i didnt wanna talk.. was really messed up inside.

i hate the part where the policeman called King Kong a 'dumb beast' for getting himself cornered.. oh for goodness sake! he didnt ask to be carted away from his island.. to be brought to a foreign place and be ridiculed.. ogled at.. laughed at.. and for what? the greed of man! and when man realise they didnt get that great a deal afterall, they kill.. they destroy.. it's sick.. it's just so sick.. we are in no way superior to the beasts God created.. no way! do we have the strength of an elephant? do we have the speed of a cheetah? all we have are brains and we use them in twisted ways! awright.. i can probably go off on a tangent so i'll stop here.

6.15pm
going home now
pounding head
imagine covering for 2 colleagues
on top of my never ending work *sheesh*
who covers for me when i'm not around?
no blardee one!

and it's raining now!
argh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!

this is da day when someone has officially entered the mid-twenties!

at the stroke of midnight.. he was bombarded with hugs & kisses (by me only!) and happy birthdays.. we then put on a DVD.. though i was itching to give him his presents!

(after how he put me through hunting the entire wrong room for my ring.. when all along its on his pinky! he's not gonna get it easy!) put him on a present hunt.. and bcos i love him, i only limit the hunt to his computer room.

Clue: It's where it's supposed to be.

( it's actually hanging unassumingly in his wardrobe)

MY BIRTHDAY BOY posing in his present..

it's... the LATEST ENGLAND JERSEY!

one of the stuff he likes.. why he would want another England jersey when he has 3 similar ones hanging in his wardrobe, is not something i can comprehend.. oh well, anything to make my boy happy :)

and here's zack playing with part 2 of his presents

guess what it is???

it's a SONY ERICSSON w800i!!!!!

the look on his face when he opened this present.. is priceless *grin*

it makes spending that sum of money so worthwhile..
the only bummer is that we no longer hold similar hps :(
but watching his face positively glow.. is enuff

OFF WE GO TO DINNER...

it was raining so decided to take a cab...

it's been ages since we last took a cab so we really had to take some pics to commemorate the event


AT TONY ROMAS...

so zack finally has his beef ribs!
been raving about the beef ribs for ages
so today.. he has yet another dream come true

(and please pardon the horrendous red light)

IMAGINE GOING OFF TO WORK... after a good dinner

awww... so poor thing...
but looking at that smile on his face, i dun think he minds one bit
or maybe he's still basking in the aftermath..

and once again...

BLESSED BIRTHDAY BABY!!!

back from doing some important stuff..

what?
NOT TELLING!

all i'm saying is..
someone is gonna be really happy


and i wanna tell my darling..
'i'm sorry..'

and to the rest of you..
mind your own business!

my throat is sore again *crap*

i miss my rock.... *sobs*

and my blurry eyes see red..

i've just about lived through one of the worst day
or perhaps i'm just too exhausted

work in the office is driving me up the wall
people in the office is making my blood boil

and things just keep getting 'better'
was on my way to collect my ring from the jeweller
only to receive a call when i'm halfway there telling me its not ready!
i was already tired.. fuming.. so you can prob guess the person who called got it good from me

all the events of the day were getting to me and for once in a long while... i was almost erupting.. (i actually frightened one of the temp gals in the office *sheesh*)

funnily.. felt much better the minute i saw zack and he wrapped his arms around me.. and cos i had a bad day, he brought me to Cafe Cartel (his treat!).. so sweet right *smile* and after dinner he even suggested walking ard TM and Century Square (coming from someone who dislikes shopping in any form).. but i was so tired (almost fell asleep on my feet), we headed home after awhile. And i fell face flat (literally) on the bed the minute we got home..

tough week.. kept postponing dinner with ant (sorry lah..) a tired ju is no good company.. cant count the no. of times:

- i dozed off after dinner
- fell asleep on his lap in the middle of watching a DVD and only waking up to see the credits (now i gotta watch Big Fish on my own *pout*)

and tonight, i gotta Christmas dinner at Jon's (my big boss)..


*plop*


i'm so stressed i popped 4 pieces of chocolate! *gasps* but its ok.. i can afford it, i've lost most of my lovehandles.. heheh!

when will sleep take me?

its 2 in the morning... and i'm still awake
exhausted but cant sleep.. hate this feeling
so here i am.. online.. blogging.. chatting on msn

oh.. did i mention Ben is back!!!
and only contact me after he's back for a week!
that boy never change... hai...
but at least he's back (for good??) so i'm not complaining.. heh

why do i bother sometimes
why dun i just mind my own business
why care and no one appreciates
think i'd find better things to do from now on
oh well..

and i'm hungry now
and i need to be up in 4 hours
and i'm not getting any sleepy
and i'm not looking forward to the long day tomorrow
and i'm still coughing my lungs out
and it's nearing 3am


this is so sucky..

this Christmas...

ju goes RED!

and when she says Red.. she means HOT RED!!!


TADA!!!!

went experimental with my hair.. get bored easily and am now tired of the usual copper brown.. a fresh look i told Yvonne.. whisper? speak? or scream!? i want SCREAM! like the way the highlights were done.. not the usual colored streaks around the head (boring..).. but sheets of color in the inner layers with a dark burgundy base covering the top.. so the overall look is dark and everytime my hair is tousled, the light catches the red at various angles.. i call it: "Subtlety in the loud way"..

just hope the red would not run which it probably will.. oh well

tough matching clothes with my red hair so i go for contrast rather than complement.. so i will be in green this christmas and be a walking christmas tree!

HOHOHO!

did something i had been meaning to do for awhile.. hate to do this but sometimes, i have to be cruel to be kind.. i really cant bear to hurt anyone.. *sigh*

spent a good part of yesterday morning and the entire afternoon chatting with SY and Jo on msn... we had such a blast! gosh, my butt was aching from sitting on the wooden chair for 8 hours.. we finally went off when SY and i wanted to nap and Jo went to spend time with her Ming.. ahhhhhh.. cant wait to meet my gals!

then spent the remaining day:

- mopping/sweeping the floor

(and guys, here's a piece of advice for you: (only do this when you have a death wish)

Ask your gf: "so are you cooking dinner for me?" when she is hot, sweaty and tired from doing a houseful of chores.. you are only asking for it!)

- do the laundry
- clean half the toilet
- took a nice hot shower so i smell all nice

and wait for zack to come home.. nobody wants to be greeted by a hot and sweaty fiancee right? :D

TODAY?

going for an auction later in the afternoon then meet zack at Expo (he's working day shift today *bummer*) .. there's a Home Reno Exhibition going on.. gosh i really dislike those pesky Bridal Studios hasslers!

and i need to re-size my ring.. its a tad too big.. no fault of zack.. he got my ring size from the ring i wear on my right hand not knowing that my left hand is a little smaller.. i cant bear to part with my ring for 2 days *sobs*

i still cant believe i'm engaged *pinch pinch*.. getting used to referring zack as MY FIANCE.. i've got a Fiance.. and i am a Fiancee! *grin*

flew back from the moon...

.. and have been working like a horse since then

have worked through lunch for 3 consecutive days.. i even missed my pilates today *sheesh* gosh, everyone wants a piece of me and the blardee phone just won't stop ringing! i'm going crazy and am so so exhausted.. so amazed at my ability to answer the phone with a ring in my voice when all i wanna do is cut that cord.

oh well, rushing everything so i dun have to work late.. meeting zack after work so it's something to look forward to.

The ailment: growling stomach + pounding head

The cure: dinner + movie

i feel like fish&co..

Look at the stars..

look how they shine for you..



he gave me a star..
and showed me how much he loves me..

tell me, what more can a gal ask for?

thank you sweetheart..

for everything you've been to me
for everything you've given me

and everyday.. i thank God for you..

i love you

"will you make me the happiest man....."

i'm running on reserve fuel..

with all the excitement during the weekend.. i cant sleep, i cant eat.. and i'm still brimming with energy.. took me a day to calm down... or have i?? and i cant keep that grin off my face or my eyes from glancing down :D

THE STORY
headed up to Mt Faber.. which wasnt unusual cos we do that at times.. sat at The Point.. enjoying the view.. chatting.. laughing and teasing each other.. then he pulled me in his arms and said softly, "ju, will you make me the happiest man and call me 'hubby'?" (which is something i had been refusing to all this while cos i had not been 'asked properly').. but this time, the teasing felt different somehow.. and when he stood up and reached into his pocket.. my first thought was, "oh my gosh! what is he doing?!!!"

THE MOMENT
and when he got on his knee.. it dawned on me.. i was being 'asked properly'.. *sobs* it was so beautiful.. that moment.. i was shocked speechless and alternate between looking at the ring and his sweet beaming face.. and when he slipped the ring on my finger, my heart cried..

(but if you were to ask him, he would probably say i spoilt his proposal cos i didnt follow his 'script'.. he had to ask me 3 times before i said 'YES'! (you wouldnt wanna know my first 2 answers) Ahahahaha! he refused to get up til i say 'Yes' so he was on his knee for a full 5 mins *grins*)

THE RING
is awesome.. perfect.. he picked the diamond and got it set to how i like it (he had help from my sneaky Godma and sis!) i asked him why the size.. it is half a carat! (was expecting a much smaller one) and shines like a star on my finger.. he replied, "cos i only want the best for my girl" *sobs* and animatedly began telling me about the cut, color, clarity and how clear it was when he viewed it thru the jewellers loupe etc.. it seemed like he had a field time getting the diamond :) but i was only half listening cos it doesnt matter to me how big it is or how white and clear it is.. all it matters is that it is from him.. from my zack..

*sniffs*

cant believe WE'RE ENGAGED! oh my.. everything seems to fall into place perfectly.. and it changes everything, the whole dynamic of the relationship.. when i see him, i see MY FIANCE, my other half.. the person whom i will be spending the rest of my life with.. i cant begin to describe it but its like a bond had been forged between two persons.. its simply amazing...

and everytime i think back i still tear *sniffs*

"and you make me the happiest woman..."

brought me to one of the highest point in Singapore.. with the vast expense of the ocean surrounding us.. gentle breeze tickling our cheeks.. and the entire city twinkling at our feet..

...he got down on his knee, opened the box in his palm and asked, "will you marry me ju?"

*gasps*

so we finally got Our KEYS!

Welcome to our world.. Let us come on in...!

so presenting... ZACK AND JU'S NEST!

main door.. to the right is the kitchen and the door in the kitchen (with the little porthole above) opens to the bomb shelter..

view from the main door... small corridor leads to the 3 bedrooms. As this is a standard flat, the flooring is not done up.. which is good cos we get to choose the kind of flooring we like!

...so to the right would be the living area and the dining area to the left..

our kitchen.. which is soooo breezy! and its squarish in shape which is excellent to design.. i see all the possibilites (my island kitchen!!!)

our living room.. which is airy and bright (looks otherwise in this pic i noe, its the camera).. when the windows were opened, there was a whiff of the sea in the air.. ahhhh....

the view from our living room (and all the bedrooms).. thats coney island at the far end! see the dark yellow, green and white blocks in front? thats where we are staying right now.. haha.. i can communicate with my sis using flashlights..

said a prayer.. to cleanse our house.. and thank God for giving us a lovely house to call our own.. it seemed more than a prayer when we held each other and prayed.. its like.. a dream come true *tears* thank you Father..

and lastly, our letter box... brimming with rubbish..!

standing at the threshold..

it dawned on me that there's no turning back from tomorrow forth..

cos we are no longer talking about just a booking deposit of $2K anymore. We are now talking about downpayment of $20K.. CPF accounts wiped dry.. mortage loan of $'00,000s.. setting up of accounts for various payments.. etc.. We are playing the Big Men's game now!

we have arrived at the threshold of adulthood

oh my gosh..

Date: 3 Dec 2005
Time: 8.30am
Venue: HDB Hub 480. Lor 6 Toa Payoh.


i cant hope wondering... how's it gonna be from now?



i'm so excited.. but at the same time.. terrified..

someone's big day is coming!
been cracking my head on what to get
by a stroke of genius..
I SEE THE LIGHT!

is someone getting something(s)???
hmmm.. or... maybe not....?
maybe something else will come along..?

hehe..


yells: BENONI.. oi, you've not told me when you will be coming back??!!!

the magic words..

zack: "shall we go for a cruise?"

me: *stars twinkling in my eyes*


but it wouldnt be anytime til Jan next year..
we'll see how things go..
at least there's something to look forward to..

*grin*

my 3rd visit to the doc's in 1 week
*sheesh*

been coughing til my abs hurt
i dun even need the gym now
on ventolin and steriods
then my dear sis told me steriods makes me fat!
*gasps*
ai.. anything to stop me from coughing my oesophagus out

doc's orders:
and apart from abstaining a list of food..
i cant talk


okie.. gotta go do my homework.. which is....

CHECKING OUT HOME DECO MAGS!!!!!


*4 days more!*

*cough*

so other then coughing my lungs out.. burning my head off.. sleeping my bed flat.. i havent been up to anything.. so here's a couple of stuff my drug-induced brain can sieve out:

caught Harry Potter on Sat.. but i was so stoned i couldnt even work out any excitement.. sheesh.. i felt so cheated! We caught it with Adrian and Irene (zack's bro and soon-to-be sis-in-law) at Great World City. It was the first time zack double dated with his brother.. cant imagine catching a movie with my sis and Andrew.. haha.. we had the famous beef noodles at Purvis Street.. spent the time chatting bout house reno.. cos their house is undergoing reno now and they are going to ROM in Jan!

and if you must know.. was kinda disappointed with Harry Potter movie.. read the Globet of Fire again to prepare myself for the movie but it kinda fall short (they didnt even show the Quidditch World Cup!) then again, how do you expect to cram the entire book into a 2.5 hr movie.. oh well.

right... now for the 2nd piece of news which is also the best! This was what happened: Last friday, Zack went to his parent's house to collect his mails and our HDB letter.. when he reached home, he told me it was only a Letter of approval for our Mortgage Loan Application.. *burst my bubble* we had our dinner.. then he picked up the newspaper and was idly flipping thru it.. and exclaimed: "oh.. how come there's another letter inside?" i was thinking it must be some SK jewellery flyer or the likes.. then he pulled out the thick A4 HDB envelope! *SCREAMS* the cobwebs in my brain cleared away instantly! ahhhh... that cheeky monkey pulled a good one on me! *muaks* WE ARE COLLECTING OUR HOUSE KEYS THIS SATURDAY!! *wooohooo...!*

so its a brand new headache for us now.. house reno.. bank loans.. interior designers.. where to start???!!! i guess our most pressing issue at hand is to put our heads together and decide on our home deco.. we tried last night and kept butting heads (i was also stoned.. but who put a glass door in a kitchen right!) so our homework now is to work on the deco ourselves then come together and see how our deco differs.. hehe.. i cant wait to see our end product *grins*

*gulps*

this excerpt is from one of my email chit chat with ant.. and of crse, this is from an incoming mail..

sheesh... no wonder you always smell funny... *eeeewwwww*

"I finished Prince Caspian in nearly one night u know... Read half the book sitting on the toilet, didnt want to get up and stop reading. Then read some more in bed. Then remembered i didnt clean myself after getting up from the toilet so went back in. And then had to change my sheets. Then went to sleep with 5 pages to go."

had a conversation with a friend yesterday..

his questions were:

are you accepting the most suitable person that comes along?
or you are gonna wait for the best?

and my question was:

what constitutes 'the best' person? define 'best'..

was pondering and running thru' the questions in my head on the way home.. i've got my answers.. then i was pondering and tossing the answers around..

i've got no checklist.. list of virtues.. list of flaws.. i dun want to be on one end of the balancing scale neither do i want to put someone on it.. (who is more outgoing? who is sweeter?..) if i ever am or do, then i seriously question that love.

it's how i dun want him to love me cos i'm sweet, nice, pretty, sexy, funny etc... but knowing how i get grumpy when i'm disturbed from my nap.. hurt him with the things i say.. get jealous and unreasonable.. am a tough cookie fighter cock.. am insensitive to his feelings.. and yet he loves me.. with all my imperfections

just how i love him not cos he is the sweetest, sexiest, gentlest guy.. i love him even when he plays his stoopid game til 4am.. even when he hurt me with words when we argue.. even when he refuses to wash the toilet.. even when he doesnt always understand me.. inspite of these.. i love him.. with all my heart

when you love a person.. you are not blind to his flaws.. and you love him all the same.. you wanna make him happy.. you do little things to put that smile on his face.. you buy the little things he likes.. you make sure he is covered under the quilt at night.. you worry about his safety when he's on the road.. you think about him when you're apart.. even when he hurt you, you always find it in your heart to forgive him..

so what's the best?

it's really simple.. really. That's when you truly love someone.. he/she naturally becomes THE BEST.. and if you are still questioning yourself.. then... GOOD LUCK!

back from the doc's..

instructions:
no peanuts (no loss)
no eggs
no chicken
no milk (not even yoghurt!)

then what can i frigging eat?!!!!

just finished watching I Am Sam (by Sean Penn) on tv. Didnt catch it in the cinema and was rather skeptical bout watching it tonight.. i tend to steer clear from movies that messes up my heartstrings. Anyway, i had to fold the clothes so turned the tv on and there it was.. sheesh, i was right.. 45mins into the movie and i was crying my eyes out.. felt everything.. anger.. pain.. hurt.. some funny parts but it just didnt feel right to laugh..

how can watching a show leave me feeling so raw..? been feeling emo of late.. feel like some pressure cooker at times.. anything set me off.. and sometimes, there were consequences to bear..


close your heart..
silly gal
hide your eyes..
silly gal
nobody wanna see your tears..
silly gal
nobody wanna hear your fears..
silly gal

go to bed now
silly gal..


*lost and scared..*

still cant believe i missed D&D
boy i'm glad i did!!!!
or i'll be in for a ride

its MTV night so there'll be 'Awards' presented..
.... got a sms last night from my colleague telling me i was nominated for the Sexy Figure Award! sheesh.. if i was there, i'd be up on stage doing crazy stuff.. probably some catwalk or something.. in front of 100 over people! *phew* (DAVID TAN! YOU SABO ME! - he's the chairman for our Social Recreation Committee this year)

i missed all that fun..

oh well

why didnt i go?
well.. for various reasons

"ju ah.. u havent show color yet?"

(i'm all deck in my tee and jeans and specs!!)

cant believe i'm not going for D&D
i never miss such events!
love dolling up..
makeup.. hair.. pretty clothes..
*sigh*

sheesh...
gotta get outta the office soon
everyone's bugging me bout not going

D&D tonight..

i'm not going

"eating snake"

today marks the 1st time in my working life (albeit a short one) i had this delicacy

3.30pm
david needed a break so asked me to accompany him to YaKun
to destress

see..? people leading me astray.. tsk tsk


(for the benefit of those who doesnt know the meaning of "eat snake", its the hokkien equivalent of skiving)


6.30pm
and the blardee auditors (from New York) are driving me crazy!!! i'd do my boogie dance when i see the hide of them tomorrow!!!

ahhhh.... i'm going home now!

Shopping Keeps Your Brain Young

was reading this old copy of Reader's Digest (not some trashy fashion mag) and came across this article. Wow... just know i have to share this! Enjoy! :D

Women live longer than men because they shop more. That's what husband-and-wife team Guy McKhann and Marilyn Albert, both professors at John Hopkins University and authors of Keep Your Brain Young, have theorised after a ten-year study of 3000 elderly people that assessed how physical and mental activities help people live longer and have more productive lives. Shopping keeps older women physically active (bags to lug), challenges the brain (a trip to the shops involves hundreds of choices) and boosts self esteem (a sense of accomplishment results).

Meanwhile, Grandpa is on the sofa watching television - an activity that fails to challenge in any of these areas. Retailers love such studies, but puzzles and card games might be cheaper ways to keep the brain active, and a walk is as effective as a lap around a mall.

right.... forget about the last sentence.. puzzles and card games aint gonna boosts your self-esteem.. do i hear an Amen from all the women out there??

like i always tell zack.... part of why we women shop are for the sake of u guys too.. when we look good, u feel proud too right *dun bluff* so u see... its really for u guys.. the sacrifices we make.. our aching arms.. our sore feet.. and to think u guys always grumble when u see our shopping bags.. hai.. the indignation we suffer... poor women..

had a crazy morning
had a crazy afternoon
payroll is driving me up the wall
everything is driving me up the wall *sigh*
must have ran 2.4km ard the office
in my 4-inches killer stilettoes
legs are breaking now

its a quarter pass 6
office is getting quiet
the quiet hum of the aircon

i'm tired
been a long day
think i'd go home soon

.... and clean the house
*sigh*


i'd just better not go anywhere near my bed


oh.. and i just received my 1st Christmas dinner invitation.. from Jon (my big boss)... at his house.. Let the feast begins!

the other night..
i dreamt of you..

they always say time heals..
then tell me..
why was the pain so acute?
why were the tears warm?

they lied..

the night-ling strikes again

woke up from my nap
had a nice hot shower
followed by my nightly rituals
which comprises of..
piling a kazillion stuff on my face
hydrating my birthdaysuit
women.. all about maintenance
whoever said being a women is easy

had a talk with David about friends today.. friends 'politics' in the office.. kinda baffled me cos couldnt exactly comprehend why friends (in the office or general) can have so much conflict.. well, as least to me.. i like to keep things easygoing.. but i guess when ppl get too close, expectations set in and when these arent met.. unhappiness arise..

got me pondering..

me? i like things easy.. but when someone gets too demanding.. i pull away.. it happened once.. its sad.. but her demands were more than i could handle.. only a handful i hold close to my heart (you know who you are).. whom i allow into the 'circle of trust' :D

grab me tighter and i run faster..

as what someone said.. i'm like an iron.. takes awhile to warm up.. but when i warm up.. i'm hot! sometimes i warm up (eventually).. sometimes i dont (ever).. call me stuckup but thats me. i've got good vibes about ppl and i trust my instincts.

another area that got me pondering over..

why come to a point where you depend entirely on someone (be it partner or friend) to fulfill your needs? to make you happy.. keep you company etc.. and when you dun get it, it upsets you.. isnt that too heavy a responsibility for anyone? that whatever that person say or do either makes you or breaks you.. it's scary when someone has that much impact over you.. dun ever come to that.. i'm learning.. to fulfill my needs on my own.. if i need comfort, i find it.. i dun depend on someone for it.. cos people fail you.. if they dun, smile and be thankful.. and if they do, dun waste time and energy blaming them.. look elsewhere for what you need.. sounds selfish? i think not.. it's survival.. at certain point in your life, you'd have certain needs.. it's up to you, not your partner.. or a friend.. to find ways to meet them.

sheesh.. no idea what set me off on this tangent
the night always does this to me



3.30am
off to bed i go..
got the whole bed to myself tonight! and a lovely sight awaits me when i wake :)

is it friday?

doesnt feel like it

i've realised..
retail therapy is shortlived
lifespan is an approximate 4 hours
after the 4th hour..
that euphoria dissipates
and you are left feeling..
that same old, same old way

endorphins?
gym this afternoon..
abs gonna ache big time tomorrow
have not fully recovered from my workout on Tuesday
been walking funny the past 2 days (butt ache)

realised a couple of my colleagues lost some weight
sheesh.. they dun look good
boobs and butt got smaller
their head looks bigger than their bod
(thank goodness they dun read this blog)
point being.. its not that good to be too thin
perhaps i dun need to lose any weight uh
people always say i'm nuts when i say i need to lose weight
perhaps.. i'm a tad too paranoid.. (as zack always say)
at least i'm still wearing XS and got some boobs and butt
but still...
i'd prob look better 2 kg lighter
aiyah.. WOMEN!


my hp beeped..

"bought you milk tea :)"

i got milk tea waiting for me at home!
*beams*

tooth and nail

the other night..
we were checking out some interior designers websites
and browsing some home deco mags
i am tenacious when it comes to home designing
meaning.. i know what i want
right down to the exact shade of wall color

i look at zack and thought...
"i've finally found my match.."

we are so going to have fun fighting!!! wooohoooo....!

typed a really long post (twice!)
blogger screwed up and my post got lost (twice!)
oh well
maybe i'm not meant to post it after all

busy monday
no time to wallow in the blues
which is good
had my brows thread at Little India
sheesh.. after so many months
it still makes me wince

a conference call at 7pm tonight
should i do the call from home?
or should i hang around the office?

just had teh beng (milk tea) ice cream
it tastes.... erm.....
think it just about wean me off my milk tea craving
so... yeah

my exasperation and my joy
my frustration and my love

who is she?
my baby

a window or a door?

casual chit chat opens to a window of opportunity
same environment
different department
an entirely different jobscope
definitely something to think about
when i'm getting restless
and things are getting onerous

is God's hand in it?

with more commitments setting in
cant afford any drastic impulsive moves

enjoy what you are doing?

zack worked for a record of 16 hours last night
14 calls in total
1 call takes an average of 1 hour
meals and toilet breaks?
go figure.
he came home at 12.30am last night
looking exhausted and hungry (hadnt had his dinner)
with all smiles! *amazing*

there can only be 2 reasons:
1) i'm so beautiful that his face lights up everytime he sees me *dun choke*
2) he just love his job

hate to say this.. but i think its the latter

me?
i start counting down to 5.30pm the minute i step into the office

oh! did i mention i saw a mini denium skirt at Forever21?!!! it has flowers motif on the side and it's just lovely! I WANT!!!!!! Siying said it was real cute too... til she saw the price tag and dragged me away

it's 68 bucks

*sobs*

and zack refused to let me buy when he heard where the hem stops..

*pout*

RETAIL THERAPY is always therapeutic
more so when its done with your darling gfs
as usual its yakking, yakking and more yakking
and when 4 women shop, its chaotic
but so satisfying...
no worrying if anyone is getting impatient outside the dressing room
or need to fill his bottomless stomach
or wearing out his long legs walking from takashimaya to far east
*heh*

in short, shopping and men cant be used in the same sentence
when it comes to shopping.. women just understand women. period.

so we did a little shopping then agreed to have dinner at wisma's newest foodcourt
gosh its HUGE... and i love the deco!
the aroma from the stalls were tantalizing
or perhaps thats cos i was starving
but we waited about 45mins for a blardee table!

(an insight: people with small kids are extremely good at grabbing tables.. their kids do the ugly job of running to the table when there are people already there waiting! and who can fight with a kid... i hate those parents.. they are uncouth, kiasu and so frigging ill-mannered! its disgusting!)

yeah, i'm speaking from experience and my growling stomach certainly didnt help

was the 1st to rush off to get my beef noodles once we got a table
and the 3 gals just have to buy the hokkien mee with the longest queue!

then it was more shopping!
(didnt get much though just some lingerie)
and after many whinings from Jo
we finally proceed to Cafe Cartel at Cineleisure
didnt realise how tired we were til we sat down

but it was good
caught up with each other
(though Jane drove us crazy with her whining)
planning a short holiday out of town!

caught Sky High with zack at PS thereafter
funny and entertaining.. a must watch!
and boy i love Kelly Preston!
before the movie started, trailer of Narnia was shown
its gonna be sooooo good!
i cant wait!!!

6pm
time to get ready
meeting Godma and Rachel for dinner at Lau Pa Sat


wanna sleep.. *yawns*

let's talk about sex baby...

so who is up for this???
hands up!!!
(c'mon.. dun shy lah)
$14 per ticket
18 - 20 Nov
its really only a Health Talk.. really

a section featuring "furniture that enhances love-making"!
*WOW*
for our new home!
how apt! :D


darling.. let's go!!!

hot and stuffy sunday afternoon

weather report from perth: windy and cool *envious*

whole day to myself
to laze and sleep and read
(and clean the house -_-)
while someone is out saving lives

went prawning yesterday
26 bucks
2 rods
1.5 hours
came home with 4 miserable prawns
caught 7 but 3 escaped (dun ask how)
think the uncle is feeding his prawns omega3
they are getting smarter!
they spent more time 'playing' with us than us catching them!

walked along the beach some
love the tangy sea breeze
cant get to most breakwaters but one
love breakwaters
then it was supper at hougang KPT
mutton chop and teh beng
another late night
but slept reeaaal well

Note to Jo: shopping / airport / geylang serai (SY suggested that.. not me!) this wed?! SY and i free... let me know


ahhhhhhh..
my abs are still aching...

so... presenting.... JU'S HOME!

i look at it and see all the possibilities
after playing The Sims for years
i'm finally gonna 'build' my own home

this would mark my 4th house in 3 years
has it only been 3 years?
seem to have lived a lifetime

as a kid, had always like moving house
cos that meant a new room, new beginning
but all my moves hadnt been joyous occasions
the next move is gonna be different
cos its MY turn now
i've come a long way
and no one is gonna spoil it for me!

cant begin to say how much this means to me


oh my gosh.... ju's finally gonna have her own home!
*pinch pinch*

and so it is!

its done.. WE GOT IT!

as unit after unit got snapped up, was getting weary.. zack comforted me: "then that's not meant for us.. God will narrow down to that best unit for us.." and He did!!!

so what's so swell about our new house?

let's see ya...
1) high floor (15 storey!)
2) open field infront
3) some seaview of coney island
4) 3 mins walk to Punggol Plaza (NTUC, foodcourt, banks, clinic, watsons etc)
5) accessible to 2 bustops
6) LRT right smack in front
7) roof garden to bring the dogs
8) cost a fraction less of what we'd have paid for Klang Lane

so whatcha think? *grin*

was 9plus in the morning when we finally got to see the officer and for a heart stopping moment, we thought our unit was taken up.. gosh, it was nervy.. after 3 days of suspense.. it was just sweet sweet victory when we both signed the papers

cant begin to describe that feeling.. unlike our Klang Lane application.. this has a finality to it.. like: "yeah, so this is it" felt a peace.. and just the purest joy

so it should be ard 2 - 3 months before we can collect the keys.. our Christmas present?

simply cant forget that moment when we both walked out of the HDB office after signing all the documents.. hand in hand.. with silly grins on our faces

we got our home, baby! *grin*

is this it?

cant stop talking
cant sit still
cant stomach any food
cant sleep

nerves...

i'm driving the people around me crazy

my nerves had been wrecked havoc
3 long arduous days
disappointments
dished out in small potent amounts
as unit after unit went from blue to red

"ju's like monitoring the stock market.."

then we found this one unit
perfect but not saying anything yet
dun wanna jinx it
8.30am
7 hours more to go..
the verdict will be out!


oh my gosh... we're gonna have our own home!!

the heat is on...

2 units down
2.5 days to go

crap

my insides are all knotted up

how anti climax can it get..

took me a day to recover

all ready to go to HDB, with documents and all... only to be told that the booking exercise starts on 24 Oct.. and we have to take a blardee queue no. first!!! zack got there like about 12pm and our queue no. is 839!!! my heart plummeted all the way down to the toes of my soul...

our appointment is on thurs morning (4th day of the exercise!). hopes are dashed.. 838 units would be taken up first and what are the odds the unit we want is one of them? and still got the racial quota to worry 'bout.. i cant bear to think.. shortlisting a few other units as well.. if we cant get a unit in this WIS, no idea when it'll be before we can get our own flat.. people: we need all the prayers we can get.. *prays*

more retail therapy?

supposed to go for pilates class
but went for some therapy instead
and bought these :D

dun usually wear shoes like these
but these ballet slippers are so sweet

retail therapy
3 women
400 over bucks
1 hour

got a cheer up chocolate chip cookie from David
thanks dude! *grin*
(he's bribing me to add that extra zero in his payslip)

Walk-in-Selection for Sengkang, Punggol and Hougang Flats Now On!

*SCREAMS*

and we found a unit! and zack is in our unit RIGHT NOW! crap, i wanna be there too! he called me and started describing the view (seaview!).. the flat layout.. and even thinking where we can put our bed in the master room *grrrrr* he managed to sneak past the construction workers and receeing other units as well.. but decided on the best unit... and guess what? its on the 10th storey!

taking half day leave and meeting him at HDB... saying i'm excited would be an understatement *grin*

called Ben yesterday.. just to chit chat and touch base.. yak about the usual stuff.. then the not so usual stuff.. noticed a cycle here thru' out the years.. was a comfort talking to my dear friend and as usual, he is spot on.. on almost everything.. so he is either (1) extremely good at what he does - psychology... or (2) he knows me frigging well! in any case, it was comforting.. and encouraging.. things i didnt realise i had in me.. he saw it and pushed me to believe it.. if only i believe i can pull it thru once again.. had to hang up cos i suddenly realised we were at it for 45mins! (overseas call ok..) unsatisfied cos i had to let him go without him explaining certain things to me (he did that deliberately! that skunk just enjoy leaving me in suspense!)

felt somewhat better after
talking to someone familiar
who seemed to understand
popping over for a visit seems real appealing
maybe a change in environment will help
need a break

slept at 8am last night (a record for me)
and guess what?
i still look like crap this morning
all i ask is some peaceful sleep
is that too much?

someone commented that i've lost weight
yeah i did
funny thing is, i'm not even on a diet


*headache*

'orrible night..
desperately need caffeine

had a conversation that brought some stuff to mind
its sad that some people do not marry the person they love most

what would you do if you realise you are not the one she love most?
that there is someone she used to love more than life itself
would you feel like you are second fiddle?
would you accept that and wait for her to love you that same way?
or would you.....?
i dunno...

then again, how do you fault someone for not loving you the way you would like them to..

love really sucks sometimes

just wondering.. i'm no expert


i'm gonna crash soon

there's nothing more damaging than the lies you tell yourself

Ah ben! was wondering what happened to my favourite friend! *grin* decided to post instead of tag cos there's much i wanna say.. heh

yes yes.. loadsa juicy stuff on my blog right! i'm always your main gossip source... hahaha! cant wait to see u back home.. so much i wanna tell u.. how many times i wish i can just buzz u and grab u out for coffee or ban mian at bishan..

Ant's gonna be in perth for 3 weeks.. think he'd be there next sat.. i wanna go too!!!! its the purrfect time to visit cos its spring! but your friend here no dough.. hai.. think i've been whining about visiting u since your 1st year there.. and now its your last year

its 12.30am.. time for your friend to rest.. meanwhile, you take care and pleasssse...

1) dun study too much
2) go part tow more
3) eat!!! (dun wanna see a bag of bones when u come back *grin*)


*big hugs!*

there's nothing better than a heavy downpour on a sunday afternoon (that is only if i'm indoor)

Saturday :
shopping in town.. for a straight 6 hours! Met Ant for some gift-hunting in town (despite aches from my pilates the day before) was dragged to countless of shops to hunt for that gift for his special someone.. then both of us went to meet Carol at Heeren... she got her navel pierced.. if u ask me, every gal should get her navel pierced (so dun ask me) my only regret is not doing it earlier.. so what's next? a tattoo?!!! we were deciding on a navel stud and saw this gal getting a tattoo on her back.. she was clutching her friend like she was in labour pain *gulps* but zack said that pain is tolerable.. hmmm... if only i can find a nice picture.. then...

blowed a hundred bucks (didnt have time to get some nice lingerie.. hai) and wasnt done til 8.30pm, zack picked me up at punggol mrt after work.. with all my barang barang. Tired but sated..

my barang barang:
- bolster (for zack)
- bathrobe
- mini fan (for zack)
- halter top
- 4 beard papa

what i ate for the entire day:
- bowl of cereal
- cup of pao pao cha
- 1 beard papa

not on a diet.. just too caught up with stuff :P night didnt end here.. rest for an hour at home then we are off to Great World City to catch: Deluce Bigolo (European Gigolo) with Andy and Leanna.. was really tired from a day of walking (and shopping) but the movie was entertaining.. mindless entertainment.. just what i need

work tomorrow... hai...

a chauffeur and a present..

life just dont get any better

zack had an errand to run and came round to pick me up from work.. went to compass point for dinner... over burgers and fries, he had this grin on his face and said: "i bought something for u"

I GOT A PRESENT!!!!

guess what it is????

he got me the navel ring i was eyeing on! *screams* so that boy went to Far East to pick this up before picking me up.. no wonder he took so long.. had an inkling he was up to something..

ju is happy.. really happy *beams*

pretty?

not wearing it on a daily basis.. i'm keeping it for special occasions :)

love ya darling... muaks..!

our hopes are dashed...

in the form of this mini dachshund pup

she has the softest richest brown fur like mink.. the doleful-est eyes.. zack said she has blue eyes.. but i still cant find the blue.. little sweetie is going for 3K.. which is way off our budget.. sigh.. last we heard, she's been sold *heartaches*

in any case, we'd better save our dough for our house.. which is taking sooo long! everyday we rode past the blocks of YELLOW and grey flats with anticipation tumbling in our bellies

so.... havent had much of a mood to blog.. nothing much in my boring life.. the usual.. bummed at home.. zack was off the entire weekend which was rare.. in 4 days, only day i saw the sun was on sat..

was up early on Sat and had to wait for ah boy to wake.. for a change, took the LRT and MRT to Hougang Mall for lunch and poor me had to endure zack's grumblings of the waiting time.. blah blah blah.. gotta wean him off his bike.. satisfied my craving for pao pao cha (milk tea with pearls).. ran some errands then to zack's home to collect mails, reached back home at 4pm.. awright, that took pretty long.. rest for 2 hrs then off we went to town! (on bike this time) goodness, its been so long since i went shopping i felt so deprived.. only managed to grab a book and a pair of heels.. saw a really really pretty navel ring and it costed $45! i had to leave it and my heart behind.. *sniffs*

caught the 9.40pm show: Goal! @ PS... oh, i love soccer now and Santiago Munez is HOT! was seriously contemplating becoming a newcastle fan (despite glares from the liverpool fan sitting beside me) but decided the black and white stripes wouldnt look good on me.. oh well...

then it was supper at Thomson Prata House with Andy and Leanna.. only teh beng (iced milk tea) for me.. my favourite bom prata laden with calories? GOD FORBID! didnt reach home til almost 3am.. *yawns* then yakked for another 2 hours before turning out the lights.. for a couple who live together, we sure can yak! perhaps his shift work aint that bad afterall.. i still hate his night shift

right, as u would have guessed.. i'm in a talkative mood today.. back to work u nosey parkers! bleh! ;P

i'm still thinking of my pwetty navel ring....

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get. You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them. The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase. You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away. You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance. Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't! You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors. Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor. You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

well.. my 'reward' came like.... instantly.. so this must have worked for me..

sparks bouncing off the walls.. or maybe a dose of something in someone's kahlua that night? now ya know.. too late!!!

by the way, these quizzes are really crap but entertaining
i'm bored

11pm

think i'd check out

and continue my nightly affair with JD Robb

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

erm... not too sure on the 3rd point though.. cos the last i checked, it was going at lightning speed!

i open my eyes
i try to see but i’m blinded by the white light
i can’t remember how
i can’t remember why
i’m lying here tonight

and i can’t stand the pain
and i can’t make it go away
no i can’t stand the pain

how could this happen to me
i made my mistakes
i’ve got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as i’m fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

everybody’s screaming
i try to make a sound but no one hears me
i’m slipping off the edge
i’m hanging by a thread
i wanna start this over again

so i try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
and i can’t explain what happened
and i can’t erase the things that i’ve done
no I can’t

it was dvd and ice-cream last night!

we were like only 15mins into the movie when we heard ambulance / police sirens... and zack perked up when he saw the dart team.. well, apparently it meant unusual cases like drowning or jumping without the parachute etc.. another 10 mins went by and curiousity got the better of us.. so we decided to 'take a walk'... paused our movie, leashed up pappe and down we went.. walked round the block.. past the kopitiam.. then saw the red lights flashing in the distance.. round the sharp bend coming into our estate.. was too far a walk and dun wanna appear too kaypo (which we are so!) so we deduced that some bugger must have drove too fast round the bend, upturned the vehicle and caused mass casulties (thus the dart team)

went to supermarket to buy a bottle of kaya (lastest craving is kaya toast) then back home to continue our movie... so disappointing..

and...

HAPPY 15th MTH DARLING!!!

never had a worse night
woke up every couple of hours
dreams plague me
then the wind started howling
and pappe started growling
dragged myself up to close the windows
stood at the window with the wind whipping my face
as i watched the trees bow low
for that minute
i wished..


tell me.. how can something so beautiful be so wrong?

i really need to clean the house.. but its dark outside.. cant see the dirt so no point cleaning right? haha.. shall do it tomorrow when it's bright.. gotta take half a days' leave tomorrow.. got some stuff to settle..

caught Dukes of Hazzard last night (it was real funny by the way) and wanted to check out some punggol units we got our eye on on our way home.. saw something i hope we would never encounter.. a dog was lying on the road.. apparently she got ran over.. we made a u-turn to check things out.. she had already passed on.. there's blood flowing out from her mouth and her eyes were open.. didnt know who to call.. police? anything but leave her lying there.. was sobbing real hard right in the middle of road.. and zack was like: "ju, dun cry.. people's gonna think we ran her down.." anyway, zack carried her to the side and lay her on the grass beneath a tree.. said a prayer and went on our way.. had a crazy notion to bury her but i know thats crazy..

wasnt in any mood to check out any units so we made our way home.. felt so raw.. crap, i'm still feeling the ache..

zack's on night shift tonight.. my first night alone since july.. lonely.. oh i'm so lonely.. well at least there's pappe but she disappeared right after i fed her dinner.. hai.. that gal doesnt know how fortunate she is..

and there's no one to pat my back and soothe me when i get my nightmares.. *sobs*

it was a gathering at Ant's on Friday night.. Ant & Carol, Pohling & Kelvin and Zack & i.. was supposed to be my bday dinner (yeah, like more than a mth late..) dinner was good: rack of lamb, mashed potatoes, sweet baby carrots and brussel sprouts.. and only Ant can make vegetables so sinful.. he drizzled the carrots and brussel sprout with butter!! but i must say anything good is always sinful...

and after more than a month, i finally had my birthday cake.. i'm not complaining.. cos better late than never.. baked by my dearest friend.. Ant! its a blackforest cake by the way.. see the cherries on the top? he soaked them in brandy overnight and it was just awesome! but i still missed my choco chestnut cake.. Ant cant find peeled chestnuts.. was skeptical bout the blackforest cake but didnt dare say anything cos ant will go: "Have i ever cooked anything for you that you dun like!!" (yeah, thats how big his ego is)

only one missing is far away in Perth.. miss u Ben.. (cant find a pic of him in this com to post) think i'll give some background info since u guys have been hearing these ppl quite abit: Ben, Ant and pohling are my childhood friends.. met in Childrens' Church and grew up together since 11 years old.. so we have a wealth of memories.. Ben and Ant are like my closest friends.. the kind of friends whom i will go running to whenever i fall.. the kind who looks in my eyes and say: "ok, something's wrong.. tell me".. and i will go bursting to tears the minute i hear their voice.. there's little i wouldnt do for them.. love these 2 fellows!

yup... so it is.. *grin*

faux pas

went with Ant to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to visit Poh Ling's mum.. she had a mild stroke.. and thank God she seek medical help early and took the proper medications.. hai.. people, take care of your health please.. we forgot to get flowers at Raffles Place so had to make do with what Astoria at TTS offers.. which wasnt much: flowers, soft toys etc.. so we just grabbed a box of butter cookies and a card to go with it.. i mean, isnt this what people usually get for patients..

anyway, we reached the ward, presented our gift.. Poh Ling went screeching (as usual):

Poh Ling: "Hey! why did you buy butter cookies?!! Dont you know my mum cannot eat this kinda things! There's butter and sugar in it u noe...! you bring it back home lah!"

Ant: So she eats 1 cookie every month lah
(yeah, ant and his quirky humour)

Me: *gritting my teeth*

(i'm sure ben will find this scene familiar)

errr... how am i supposed to know stroke patients cant eat butter cookies.. how life threatening can a little cookie be? what are we supposed to buy then? a safer bet: essence of chicken? isnt that heaty and it thickens the blood and when the blood thickens in turn cause another stroke? u tell me.. i'm no dietician... and my specialty is cancer.. stroke is Ant's.. so i pass the baton on to him

but... its the thought that counts.. isnt it?

not even 9am and i had to kick some ass.. i really dislike getting all worked up in the morning.. but after coming in early just to have some ppl screw things up, i just had to kick their asses.. felt somewhat better after that.. had a bad night.. slept at 10 plus and woke up with dark circles around my eyes.. feel like i'm gonna snap.. dun feel like doing anything but sleep.. but i cant even find peace in my sleep.. i feel like crap and i sure look it.. and guess what? i dun give a damn!

i just want to be left alone.. why does everyone want a piece of me.. i dun wanna talk anymore.. all i wanna do is sleep... just leave me alone... i'm begging you

do you know it costs a whopping $20.75 for 8:16mins of talktime between Bintan and Singapore!!!

i'm so tired....

in 3 hours, i've:
- sweep / mop the floor
- tidy the house
- wash / hang the clothes
- fold 2 loads of clothes
- wash toilet
- boil herbal soup for dinner
- cook rice

i've yet to:
- iron and change the sheets
- cook 2 more dishes for dinner
- clean the windows
- boil chicken for pappe

and zack will be home in an hours time... and he'll have a piping hot dinner waiting for him! his first day as a full-fledged paramedic.. in other words, taking the calls and running ambulance on his own.. after 20 months of training.. today has finally arrived :) but this also means... its back to shift work again *sobs*...... i hate his night shift :( come to think of it, its not that bad as we both get our own space..

enough blabbering... gotta cook his fav ladysfinger dish and a chai po omelette.. take a nice warm shower and wait for my boy to reach home :)

my herbal soup smells sooooo good.....

starry starry night...

packed a picnic basket and off we go to our 2nd Starlight cinema movie!

Harry Potter: The Chamber of Secrets

were there at 7.30pm and boy the queue was loooong... thankfully it moved fast.. the turnout was much better than last year's starlight cinema @ Fort Canning.. good for the organizers but definitely not for the spectators.. we were an hour early and were almost at the rear.. screen was huge so it wasnt too bad.. managed to get extra tickets for Ant and Carol and they were supposed to join us but couldnt make it at the last minute.. *bummer*


waiting for the movie to start... check out the skyline.. it was awesome..


we were both hot and sticky even before the movie started


our pinic basket! hotdogs.. (even our fav sweet thai chilli sauce.. hehe).. pringles.. packets of drinks.. etc.. surprisingly, only found 1 other couple who packed a picnic basket.. the rest came with bags of food from fast food restautants and supermarkets... we only dine in style *smirk*

packed our little gal there too! actually, no dogs were allowed but managed to smuggle her in..


pappe has her little goodie bag too... all her favourite snacks to keep her occupied..


but she drove us nuts with her preference to the grass than the straw mat... got herself smelling of grass... hai..


took some screenshots... of Harry....


and Ron!


and the 3 of us! didnt stay for the 2nd Movie: Prisoner of Azkaban though... cos it was mighty uncomfortable sitting on the ground with no back support... and we couldnt really concentrate on the movie cos people kept walking back and forth *distracting* plus zack has to work the next day and need his rest.. but its the whole outdoor picnicy experience.. that makes it memorable

our 2nd starlight cinema! *beams*

by the way, there werent a single star in the sky...