Alright.. alright.. so i read gossip columns... sue me!

In the midst of recent upsetting events, this made me really happy.. hehe
Read: "We were on a break!"
(last part was funny!)

i wish i can shield Megan from the uglier side of life... until she is emotionally ready for it.

Been busy the past couple of days.
Out the afternoons while Zack looked after our little angel.

Things happened this week that got me pretty upset.
Strangely they all revolved around the same issue.
Not 1, 2 but 3... in a span of 4 days.
Got me thinking and evaluating alot.
To understand why am i this upset.

Is it geography? Or your mindset? Or just people who are just plain fucked up?
I have this intense urge to strike back.
Never been able to take things lying especially when people i love is concern.
But i've been coaxed, persuaded...
Only when i related to a friend my lifestory 7 years back..
did i realised.....

I have come a long way. Experienced one of the world's greatest pain. Emotionally scarred. Fought with all my might those years.. for my mum, for my survival. Hated with a passion. I was spent... emotionally. But i survived. Now i'm proud to say i no longer hate him. Cos hating him gives him power over me. And that he no longer wields. Indifference is really the opposite of Love. Now, i really cannot care less. And i'm sorry for him.. really sorry for him. But love for him, is no longer mine to give. Even Zack sees that. Whatever i do, i do it out of duty. Cos thats how my mum brought me up to be. Not out of love. It's sad isn't it?

After dredging up my past.. i realised...

What this bitch said, was really peanuts to what i went through. And like my friends said, why bother with a retard? Bcos that is exactly what she is. An airhead without brains.

On a completely different issue...
Does Zack look like an ATM to anyone?
Why does ppl keep borrowing money from him??
It's getting quite irritating.
They know his pay day and the hp will ring a day before.
My ex-bf, Simon used to be one of those..
He borrows money to go clubbing!!! and i really despise him for it.
If you don't have the money, jolly well dont club.

For me, borrowing money from friends is something really degrading. I'd be totally humiliated to do so. It's different if you are shopping with your gf and short of $10.. so you borrow and return her the next day. I don't even borrow from my sis. And hardly asked my mum for money. She used to slip notes in my wallet cos she knows i'd rather eat bread then to ask her for money.

But yeah, Zack has friends like this. What's more, they drag payment.. tsk tsk. One even used his 'sick' mother as a excuse.. lies and lies.. We were royally pissed. Don't ppl have any pride?

Off the top of my head, he has 3 people owing him money at current. 1 of them has a debt that had dragged on for more than 1 year already. Zack is someone generous and sometimes i think ppl ard him take advantage of it. In a way, I'm happy that he is what he is. At least he is not one of those who borrows! As his wife, it's my job to make sure that he is not taken advantage of. He don't even realise it sometimes, he is simply too nice for his own good. But sometimes it's so tiring and frustrating having to look out for people around me.

Jeez, this is quite a depressing post.
more like a rant..
so apologies for it.
i'm frustrated.. by a couple of things.

today is just me and megan.. so it's a good day for me to be alone and regroup my feelings.

Sometimes i think i'm too much of a fighter cock.
and it's not a good thing.
I have a very strong sense of justice
and this intense need to make things right.
I cant walk away when something is not right.
when someone is being bullied..
when someone is being wrongly accused.

My mum was one of those.
She had been bullied and accused of theft by her evil MIL for years
her useless husband didnt stand up for her.
For years i was too young to do anything but watch and see how someone i love get bullied while no one did anything.
I couldnt do anything.
Children were meant to be seen, not heard in my house.
I finally did.
But only after she died, which was my regret.
I scolded and screamed at that evil woman infront of my mum's grave..
she had the gall to touch my mum's tombstone.
I chased her away and she didnt dare come back.
Justice. In front of my mum.
No one stopped me, no one dared. Not even my useless father.
Cos I did what no one else dared. All they ever did was talked and said how sorry they were for my mum, what a bad woman that witch is.
I did something.. for my mother.

Is it worth it? ...you might ask.
Just caught abit of 'Lakeview Terrace' and like this line, totally apt:
"I know it wouldnt solve anything, but i'd feel damn good about it!"

So there.

Tried my hand at Hokkien Mee tonight...
and Zack loves it! :P
"Wow! This is good. This is really really good!"
*beams*

He must be really happy with dinner cos right after dinner he took our plates to the kitchen and washed all the dishes! Without me even telling him to!

I must have stolen his heart through his stomach.... hahahaha!

Tomorrow is gonna be pretty important day for me. Somewhat.
praying that it will go well.
I'm having faith it will cos i believe it's God sent! :)

THIS WEEK...
My darling hubby is on leave!

So we are bumming at home, watching tv, playing with Megan, and of crse, i'm doning the apron more often ;)

TODAY...

Grocery shopping! Megan had fun in her Baby Bjorn carrier.. she was up up in the air cos Daddy carried her, the air up there is much fresher.. haha. We caught 2 FULL movies on cable! Always miss the beginning.. tsk tsk. Caught Heartbreak Kid and Awake. American Idol was entertaining. Friends is hilarious (as always!). In all... it was a wonderful day at home with Zack and Megan :)

Megan and Mummy is happy Daddy is home all week!

I will sleep on it tonight.....


from a fighter cock to a fighter cock:
thank you Tong Tong...
for listening..
for understanding..
you're awesome! :)

my king requested fish steak for dinner.... and that he should get! ;)

waiting for a phonecall with trepidation..
*praying hard*

off grocery shopping with Megan!


8pm...

Megan's down for the night. Staying with her a lil longer to make sure she is sound asleep before I start preparing dinner.

Des and Fu are coming over.. and dinner menu has been changed - Fish head (fillet) curry! Hope it turns out well :)

Funniest thing happened just now.

I was mopping the floor and left Megan on the exercise mat. Suddenly I heard people speaking in tamil. Huh? Channel was set at Travel & Living. Looked around and saw the culprit lying on the floor kicking her legs in glee.. that little gal had found the remote and switched the channels! hahahaha! Can't leave her alone for 5mins! :P

...to the airport to meet my 2 favorite people!

Back from a wonderful catch up with Sy!!!
Impromtu works best ;P
TCC: coffee and the orgasmic chocolate cake that oozes warm choco lava!
Been too long since we had a heart to heart chat..
Something i miss terribly..
Thanks for the lovely dessert, portugese egg tarts (my fav!) and awesome company Ah ying!! *hugs* :)



warm chocolate lava oozing out.....
it was fantastic! we couldnt bear to finish it!


2 good friends.. bitching, ranting, laughing... over coffee and dessert!
Life is good! :)

Was supposed to meet Ben too but our timing crossed :(
He was there at T3 to meet his friend so we just popped over to say hi.

Couldnt wait for him til he was done with dinner cos Zack was hungry and i was buying him popeyes for dinner. Pity..... A catch up with Ben will definitely make my night! My 2 closest friends.. in 1 night! :)

I just ate popeyes.. and feeling so guilty! :S

okie... Zacky is out from the shower..
gotta head off to bed!
sweet dreamssss....

pissed...

Took a raincheck on a dinner appointment with Ant last night and boy was i glad to.

He called me later to tell him he had in fact asked Poh Ling along (without telling me!) and ended up dining with her alone (and she drove him mad with wanting him to pay for dinner and sending her home).

Point is: I've written her off and am not the least bit interested in meeting up with her. He jolly well knows it. And to think he wanna spring this on me. What is this? Trying to get a reaction out of us? Wanna see how awkward we will be? I know him... it's not done with the good intention of mending the bridge. But for the thirst for drama and the fun of it.

It's NOT funny pal.

As for Poh Ling: For years i've put up with her bratty ways and demands. She gets angry when i didnt ask her out during school hols! You'd think i was her boyfriend instead of friend. That trip to JB years ago was really the turning point. Her rudeness about Zack was the final straw. "What kinda name is Isaac." (Isaac is a biblical name and she's a christian. Go figure.), "Eeww, he wears that ugly blue uniform?" I've mentioned it before and will again. Zack is mine.. and if you dont like him without due cause, so be it. Bitch all you want but dont ever say anything remotely mean about him infront of me, i'd NOT tolerate it. Her heck care attitude when i invited her to our wedding was the FINAL straw. I was upset. Called Ben that night and was bawling my eyes out at him. I had enough. That night, i cried.. for those years of friendship. One night, was all i gave her. The morning after, I wrote her off. Period.

This is a joke to you? You wanna put 2 negative forces and wait for combustion?
It's high time you grow up and learn to respect people's feelings and wishes.

Time check: 10.25pm

How did a day just pass like this? *snap*
Have just finished the dishes.. i'm just so tired...

Let's see....
This is an average day for me, varies according to Zack's shift:
7.30am: Megan wakes. Diaper change. Feed her.
8.00am: Put Megan back to sleep. Back to bed.
10.30am: Megan wakes. Diaper change. Let her play in bed. Use com.
11.00am: Feed her. Put her on gym mat for exercise/play. Laundry. Clean floor.
12.00pm: Megan's bathtime. Put her down for nap.
2.00pm: Feed Megan. Diaper change.
2.30pm: Bring Megan down to PP for grocery shopping. She will usually nap in her stroller.
3.15pm: Hang out laundry. Cook lunch. Cook Pappe's food. Eat lunch (while watching Growing Up). Feed Pap.
4.00pm: Wash dishes. Cook Megan's food (cereal).
4.30pm: Diaper change. Feed Megan her cereal. Play with her.
5.30pm: Put Megan down for nap.
6.30pm: Megan wakes.
7.00pm: Watch 'Friends' with Megan.
7.30pm: Megan's bathtime. Feed her. Down for the night.
8.30pm: Prepare dinner for Zack and I. Feed Pappe.
9.30pm: Zack reaches home. Have dinner together and chat about our day.
10.30pm: Wash dishes. Clean kitchen. Wash/Sterilise bottles. Boil water. Have a relaxing bath. Use the com. Spend time with Zack.
12.30am: Read/QT. Lights out.

Think being a SAHM is easy?
Think again.. haha.

So sorry if i didnt reply to your emails/smses/msn chats.. especially so in the afternoon. I'd usually be tied up with Megan. She is getting playful and naptime is getting shorter. I gotta ask Andy if babies need lesser attention as they get bigger cos his wife Leanna seems to have alota time for drama serials and vids. Between Megan and housechores, I hardly even have time to finish a novel! :( Especially now that Megan is on solids, extra time is needed to prepare her food and feed her. Perhaps i'm getting pretty anal with housechores too. If it's not cleaning the floor, it's washing the toilets. Or packing the rooms. A sinkful of dishes irks me. Tolerance for dust is getting low. Every piece of clothing gotta be folded. Oh yes, i'm starting to throw stuff away which is a mighty good thing.. hahahha. And still.. the house is never tidy enough!

It's an exhausting 24/7 job but I wouldn't trade it for any job in the world. Watching Megan grow from an immobile milk-gobbling baby to a healthy bouncy smiley imp.. just makes all the long hours, sleepless nights worthwhile :) I love how she stares at me with those beautiful eyes of hers.. a "hello sunshine!" brings on the brightest grin. It's so amazing how much she looks like Zack.. and that brings on another flood of love. She came from love :)

Sure aint easy but having an appreciative hubby makes a world of difference :)

He cooked dinner tonight and said he'd wash the dishes when he comes home tomorrow. Before he left for work tonight, he gave me a sweet long kiss and said, "I know you've been doing alot and i want to tell you that i appreciate it. Love you" *beams*

So yes.. i'm tired.. but i'm happy.. very happy :)

"Kuching? Did the pilot say Kuching?!!!!"

Location: Kota Kinabalu, West Malaysia
Date: 17 - 21 Dec 2009
Zack's birthday and Megan's 1st holiday!

Leaving for the airport..

"Let's go mummy! Let's go!!"


don't you think Megan look smashing in her travelling outfit? ;)
sundress with leggings, topped with a crochet cardigan
she was warm and toasty! ;)


in the plane with her dummies (2 of them!) and a rattle..
good gal slept through most of the take-offs and landings.
This will be Megan's 3rd flight.. Zack says Megan's 1st holiday is to the Maldives.. when she was only a few week old seedling :P

A moment of our years of travel we'd never forget:
We were in the plane, all cosy and ready for take-off. The pilot made his usual introduction and suddenly, we heard something, "......will be landing in Kuching..."

"Did the pilot just said Kuching?!!!"

There was a moment of silence. We looked at each other.

Zack then took out our e-ticket to check.

No. of stops: 1

"Isaac Chan! There is a stopover!!"
We were flying to Kuching then on to Kota Kinabalu... hahahhahah!

Zack handled the arrangement for this trip while i took a backside. I had been handling all our trips so he had gotten rusty. He didnt realised that 1 stop means a stopover. He thought: Singapore - Kota Kinabalu = 1 stop. Hahahhaha! I too didnt check and noticed it's via Kuching. Usually at the airport, Zack handles everything: our passports, filling up our embarkment cards and all (i know i'm one lucky gal ;) ). All i gotta do is hold his hand and window shop at DFS.. hehe. Anyway.. we had a good laugh over this. Oh my... :)

For all trips, one essential item to pack along is a sense of humour. Things will screw up and don't always go as planned. Being able to laugh and go along is a small attribute that makes a big difference. It's our holiday and we sure are not gonna let little hiccups spoil our time together ;)

Arrived at our hotel in the evening..
Gosh.... Zack did an excellent job for our accomodation!
The hotel is lovely!
and he got us a seaview room :)
view is lovely as you will see later.

First thing first.... Megan gets her bath!
She fits perfectly in the basin... hahahaha










then Zack and I were off to fill our stomachs..
only cafe open then was Cafe Boleh.. 24hrs.







nearing midnight and looking fresh
must be the holiday air ;)

Our morning view...

the marina..


helicopter pad to the left..





Megan...... bright-eyed and bushy tail



she slept through the night!
only woke at 7.30am... good gal!

We went to town for shopping!
Hotel provides free shuttle service to all the shopping malls in town.
Centrepoint.. the largest in KK.
looked more like Lucky Plaza.. haha
found a FOS shop! and i bought 7 pieces for Megan.. hahaha!
the ralph lauren pieces i got were like RM30 only!
happily pick and pass it to Zack to pay...
later he was like, "Megan's clothes cost as much as my t-shirts!"
(and he'd only wear themfor 3 mths) hehe...

Zack got 4 tees, Megan got 7... and then i realised...
i got nothing for myself!!

Rained in the afternoon......



so it's time for a nap!

Seafood dinner!



crowded...
locals come here too!

There was another seafood place called Portview which was pricier.
thats where the tourists goes but we didnt bother.
came here instead and were really glad we did!


Zack had much fun going around picking the seafood and deciding how he wanted them cooked.


mantis prawns....
Mark and fu raved about this...
but somehow we didnt enjoy it much.


gosh.. the sambal kangkong was sooooooooooo good!!!
never tasted such great kangkong in spore!


this one... my fav!!


stingray too was good!


i can eat a whole plateful!




our good gal was asleep.. and i could enjoy my dinner thoroughly :)

Cocktails after dinner!



Long Isle Tea....
get me buzzed? takes more than 1 long isle sweetheart.. hahhaha!












:)

Breakfast spread was goooooood

"Daddy is taking so long at the breakfast line..."

After breakfast we took a stroll around the hotel grounds...
it's really huge!















clear waters!


men with strollers look particularly dashing! ;)






i wanna yacht like this!
1 probably cost a house in Spore.. haha


can see our room from the marina..


little gal asleep...



After a long walk.. we had smoothies at the pool bar.






More seafood dinner...

they put the mantis prawns in bottles :(
so poor thing.....
why can't they make their last days more enjoyable? :(


we're having some of you tonight!






Didnt enjoy our 2nd night of seafood..
wasnt as good as the night before..
and Megan was awake so eating crabs was quite a pain..
she did fall asleep but not too soundly.



The Sabah folks were really friendly!
they love babies and were all considerate..
we had our dinner indoor and there were 4 tables..
we occupied 1 and a family occupied another.
Megan was fussing and managed to get her to sleep in her stroller..
the family was quiet so as not to wake Megan up..
Shortly after.. a big group came in and the family was hushing them up to be quiet. They were all in fact family. 1 lady actually came over to push the stroller to lull Megan to sleep and i could have my dinner. Zack and I were touched and really impressed.. :)

Having said that...
Taxi-drivers are crooks! Zack say they are crooks everywhere in the world. So in Sabah, the taxi-drivers are supposed to run by meter. But many don't and will fix a price. RM10 is the usual rate for anywhere in town. The hotel staff told us the locals don't go above RM15. So on the few occasions where we had to take cabs back to the hotel from town, we fix it at RM10. It was a 15mins drive.

We were at this small shopping mall and wanted to go to Centrepoint. It was too far for a walk especially with Megan.. and was like less than 5mins drive. Hailed a cab and he said RM10. It's too steep for a 5mins drive! So Zack said to run by meter and he agreed readily. Kinda puzzled us. We went into the cab and he switched on the meter. Starting price: RM10!!! It didnt jump. When we came out, we confronted him.. and he said, "Yeah go by meter, starting price RM10." What a creep!!! I slammed the door.

Left a bad taste in our mouths....
but like Zack said... this group of crooks are everywhere, in every country.
Tsk tsk....

Our last full day in KK..
more eating!
we went back to Centrepoint and realised that the top floor had more shops! And the shops were like the ones back home! Levis.. Secret Recipes and what have you..
Of crse.. when in Msia, we dont ever pass up a chance to dine at Secret Recipe. The prices were the same but in ringgit. Thats more than half the price ;)

our favourite... Irish Lamb Stew



Didnt loiter much cos we had to be back at the hotel by 4pm.
Why?
Cos Zack put his name down for the fishing trip but he was the only one.. haha. Minimum is 2 so he was hoping there were other takers. Fishing trip was at 4pm so we had to be back before that to check if there were other takers. There weren't... hahaha. My poor baby... *hug hug* So no fishing for Zack in KK ;P

Went back to our room for some R&R..
with a nice room... we'd better spend more time in there!
had some fun with Megan in the bathtub ;)

Evening.... Sunset at Tanjong Aru Beach :)

nice chillout place.. with pubs along the beach.












we had the RM5 Mango juice at the hawker..
see how big the cup was

Next up... another seafood feast!



check out how humongous the oysters are!


live red garoupa...
it's soooo fresh.. the flesh just falls apart in your mouth.
when steaming a fresh fish, all it needs is a simple steam with just soy sauce and spring onions.

Zack ordered 5 tiger prawns cos it's my fav.. 3 for me and 2 for him.. hehe.
he said ppl are gonna be so jealous cos my hubby bought me 5 tiger prawns..

Huh????

*giggles*



oh and our dessert....
Coconut Pudding!!!





woooo...... soooo good!
i wanna learn to make this.
gosh.. and i'm supposed to be watching my diet!

Our last morning.....
some random shots..

I love soaking in the tub...
i can:
1) watch tv
2) keep an eye on Megan in the playpen
3) enjoy the seaview


as i sit here to nurse Megan every morning... :)
Darling, let's work hard now so we can buy a beachfront villa (Thailand will be great!) for retirement ok? :P


"wanna go home darling?"





On our flight home....

see that snoozy tubby :)
she's such a good gal!
praying she'll hold up well during the long flight to London :)


It's been a lovely relaxing holiday..
thanks sweetheart for such a great one.. Love you tons!! :)