somewhere out there

woke up this morning with fear churning in my belly.
the first time in a long while i didnt know wat to do
mind was a complete blank
turmoil swirling.. churning..

wat's going to happen now?
thats the question tossing back and forth

think its time for another move
4th one in 2.5 years
i'm weary..
i'm tired..
in every sense

is there a place out there i can call my own?

that place where people take for granted
a shelter of love, warmth and comfort
a place you know you belong to without a doubt
there may be fights, arguments..
but you know deep down you belong there
and have every right to be there
no one can take that away from you
its something so fundamental

talk is cheap.. so cheap
or am i being too hard
allowed myself to believe
but it was all for naught
dunno what to believe anymore

wats my threshold?
before it all comes down
before i reach that point
that breaking point
sometimes..
i dunno if i can go on
then i tell myself..
i can bend, but i wont break
just gotta keep telling myself this

stability
thats the word
i need that


think i'll stop here..
cant go on..
any further.