went to Lawry's for dinner with Simon last night
(dun scream, u heard right, Lawry's @ Paragon)
the place i had always dream of dining
starters, main course.. then dessert came
the last dinner he said
then it all came loose

one years worth of angst and heartaches
regrets and second chances
grief and love and loss
fighting hard for someone he said he never would
someone he had been waiting for this past one year
cant say the things he wanted to hear
but inside me i kept repeating..
"why now? why wait until its gone..?"

bad timing, more misses than hits
thats what we put it down to
nonetheless.. it was heart wrenching
nothing for me to say
but sorry to have caused you so much grief

was never my intention to hurt anyone
somehow i did with my decision
i hurt deeply for the people i've hurt
i wish i cant feel the pain
i wish i can walk off without a glance
but i cant... just cant


all i hope now is that time will heal.. all wounds, old and new
and no regrets... whatever decision made, dun ever regret



(and if you must know, the steak was awesome.. i couldnt enjoy dessert though)