a penny...

Saturday, February 26, 2005

hum hum hummm...

its 2.40am in the morning and my brain is running in full mode
had a bath after a 3.5 hrs nap.. sheesh
knocked out the minute i got home
cultivating this really bad habit
been napping after i get home from work and waking at 1 plus to wash up and do my usual chores.. so it wouldnt be til 2 plus before i head back to dreamland..
bad bad habit
internal clock is getting screwed up

feel like a run now...
a run @ 3am?
nah, i'm too comfortable after my bath
think i'll end the night (or start the day) with nora roberts..

i'm broke, am so so broke
this month's bills are leaving me high and dry
amounted up to more than half my salary *groans*
am i allowed only 1 shopping spree per month?
why do i have to pay dearly for little indulgences?
money is the root of all evil..
but i dun mind more evil in my life! hahaha! (just kidding)

supposed to hang out with ant tonight
but was too tired to do anything but come home to rest
sorry.. please forgive me.......! pwetty pleeeaaazzzzeeeee...!

pappe's sleeping on my lap as i'm typing this..
warm fuzzy feeling
love her sooo much... my sweetheart..
my other sweetheart is in dreamland too..
so wat am i doing here!

night peeps...

*hungry*

so i'm little left off the centre..
i'm a little out of tune..
some say i'm paranormal..
so i just bend their spoons..

Thursday, February 24, 2005

gift from Heaven..

i found 200 bucks in the pocket of my jacket! *gasp*
got a surprise when i pulled out a thick wad of cash
prob is..
i cant remember wat is it for...
is it payment for something?
or am i $200 richer?!!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

How do you brew a cup of coffee?
needed a fix this morning
slept for only a total of 8.5 hrs in 2 days
so decided i need a little perk-me-up in my system
a cup of coffee that is!
didnt know how to brew so got some instructions from theresa
"press the full cup button, add condense milk, creamer"
somehow.. my coffee tasted awful
decided to improvise so added some milo
but it still taste awful
hmmmm...
i dunno wat went wrong
24 years of age and i dun noe how to brew a cup of coffee!
tsk tsk..
at least i got my kick

these 2 days had been greeeat!
had some retail therapy.. its da best!!! :D

bought:
2 paperbacks (Nora Roberts - Blue Dahlua and JD Robb - Imitation in Death)
2 tops from Chaos
1 bikini (sweet!)

All in the space of 1.5 hr! (dun ever leave me alone at Far East.. its detrimental for my well-being) love my buys.. but i realised that i had read one of the paperbacks before.. tsk tsk...

Fixed my hair yesterday
chopped off loads of it!
layers, layers and more layers!
colored it dark brown with copper blond streaks
love my new cut!
frames my face nicely :)

and managed to get a little gift for my dear :)

ok, i'm broke now..

"think tat's the problem when one get cut by love so deep tat the scar never really heals."

why do i feel guilty for being happy?

* * * * * * * * * * *

noe wat, i'm done.
done with all the guilt, paranoia, fears
this matters so much to me
everything is beautiful
not gonna screw it up with pesky insecurities
no i'm not.

dwell not in the past
for you cant savour the present
but welcome the future with open arms
and a fearless heart

Monday, February 21, 2005

3.30pm and i have got no mood for work... slacking pace today... why? coz its bluey monday.... dragged myself to work.. had lunch at Swissotel Merchant Court.. food wasnt really appetising.. finished only half of wat's on my plate..

have you ever had this feeling of crawling under a stone and staying there for the next 10 years? then running all over the world to burn off your sudden surge of adrenalin?

i'm restless...

i feel like gymming.. working out a sweat.. i wanna play tennis.. i wanna learn pottery.. i wanna be an artist.. i wanna sketch.. jeez, did i say that out loud?! sometimes, i wish i had pursue that.. sometimes i wonder if i am really me..

do you really know who ju is?
i dont..

should have brought my gym stuff then i can get some workout done and go home together with zack.. do you know gymming can be addictive? or should i go for some retail therapy instead? i think not, coz i'm buried under piles of bills oredi.. sigh.. i need dough.. i seriously need dough..

i'm mentally bored..

au revoir benoni..

ben flew off yesterday...
and we didnt have our last converasation :(

farewell my dear friend..
all the best to your final year
God be with you and stay strong
wish we had spent more time this time round
sorry we didnt.. thought most of it is my fault..
i'm gonna miss u tons..
(u'd better come back next year uh!)
miss having my dear friend ard..

Be good ya.. (i've been saying this for 4 years..)

Take care and godspeed.. *hugz*

Sunday, February 20, 2005

a walk down memory lane

came back awhile ago.. scorching hot weather..
went to see mummy
then over to mandai columbarium to see grandma, robin uncle & great grand uncle
pleased to see how well maintained mum's grave is
didnt allow myself to dig deep into my well of emotions..

had a walk down his memory lane last night..
mixed feelings while we sat browsing photos
felt closer to him
but hesitant at the same time
unsure how prepared i am for it
some aspects of it
it felt funny..
stirred something..
pictures say a million words
sometimes i wonder if it is better not to know, not to see
or to see and deal with it head on..

is ignorance really bliss?

stop, stop! no more.. i'm not going down this road..
so help me..

Friday, February 18, 2005

Century Egg vs. Salted Egg

"Among the Chinese communities throughout South-east Asia and especially in China, preserved eggs has continued to be an extremely popular delicacy. It is no coincidence that only duck eggs are use for this delicacy. This is probably because duck eggs are bigger and have a stronger flavor than chicken eggs, and also because the yolk of a duck egg contains more fat than a chicken egg. Basically there are two main types of preserved eggs. The more common type, much favored in southern China, is the (Salted Duck Egg). The other, which has more universal appeal, is the more famous thousand-year-old egg.

Both types of preserved eggs are made by a similar method; it is the material used in the process that are different. Basically salted eggs are made by coating raw duck eggs in a salt and mud paste, then rolling them in rice husks until they are completely covered. At this stage the eggs are packed into an earthenware urn, which is tightly sealed and stored in a cool, dark place for one to two months.

Thousand-year-old eggs (Century Egg) are nothing like as old as their name suggests. They are just raw duck eggs that have been covered with a mixture of wood ash and slaked lime and left for up to a hundred days. By the time they are used, the egg whites will have turned to pale brown jelly and the yolks will be creamy and tinged green."

Now.. thats the diff between century egg (pei dan) and salted egg.
didnt realise that pei dan is actually duck egg
but at least i can see the difference between them.. *wink wink*
hahahaah!
private joke..

muaks, love u tons!

Thursday, February 17, 2005

overslept this morning.. the first in a long while.. am still sleepy *yawns*

had dinner with ben last night.. he's leaving on sun *sobs* wouldnt be back til next year.. he's doing his final honours year.. so proud of u dude! :)
crystal jade for dinner.. scallop porridge! ordered this spinach with 3 kinds of eggs (chicken, duck and century egg) dish.. oh man, it was awesome! a must-try for all..

sent me home and we chatted for awhile.. kinda miss those days where we will chat through the night.. but i guess as we grow older, committments set in.. but its nice, really nice.. the time spent :)

realised ben shops the same way as i do
nope, i'm not going to elaborate

i saw a navel jewel stud i wanna get!
its so beautiful.....
its $35
any sponsors???

15 Feb
Another friend going back to Kanga Land...

Did some catching up with Yiming after work.. good ole yiming! still the same tan, spiky hair, quick grin, and fast talk.. never a dull moment with him and so enjoy listening to his surfing stories, his travels, his half-jap housemate antics.. burst my guts out laughing :)

its all good.. thankful for all my friends who have at some point in time touched me dearly.. :) *big hugz to all*

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Some news...

woke up this morning with some fear churning in my belly..
didnt wanna get outta bed
where i am safe in arms of security and love..
my safe haven

many fears i've got..
sometimes i let it pass me by..
sometimes i embrace it..

V Day was nice..
our first V Day spent together :)
didnt do much except went to East Coast for dinner..
intended to stay home and cook Phad Thai for dinner
but silly me.. wanted something more 'romantic' (sigh)
so off we went to east coast..

wanted to have crabs but when we reached the place (cant remember the street)
NO MORE CRABS! urgh!
bummer coz zack raves about the crabs there..
and the aroma when we reached there was tantalizing!
so we had steamboat instead, which sucks.. (should have listened to zack)
but the walk thereafter was nice..
enjoying the seabreeze.. chatting.. walking hand in hand..
laughing @ couples wearing couple-tees (i noe i noe, i was guilty of that BEFORE)
ogling at dashchunds.. dreaming of owning one..
talking about everything and anything under the stars..
How often can you find that someone who is able to touch you in an inexplicable manner?
that someone..
i'm glad for it all.. :)

got some bad news though..
Ant's dad is in hospital..
might be suffering from stroke..
unsure what the dianogsis is..
ant is KL but he might be coming back..
feel for him.. all alone in KL..
the helplessness while he sit and wait for news
God will pull you thru this ant.. be strong *hugz*