it's pounding bad.. i need a blocker.

Head is pounding... haven't had a headache in the longest of time.
Inking it might be soon..
Lord, please don't take her away so soon.. please, have mercy..
Deep in prayer...

Sometimes, I wonder if everything is a lie.
A beautiful one, I repeatedly tell myself.
Out of loyalty, I keep it all in.
Soon, I'm gonna explode.

Pressed the delete button...

...for the 2nd time.

And it will stay this way.

Monday randoms..

GROCERY LIST:
1) bottle of dettol
2) milk
3) megan's bottles washing liquid
4) minced beef/chicken
5) sausages
6) scotchbrite

Busy great weekend!

- Caught "When In Rome' with Zack on sunday at J8. Bought Koi for the movie! Told Zack it will be the ultimate experience - sipping Koi while watching a romantic comedy. You should look at his face.. hahahha. Had to explain it was just like him munching nachos in cinema.
- Church on sat.. communion week. My first! Zack washed my feet, I washed his :) After service, we went to Marine Parade for lunch and erm... Koi! :P

- Haircut on fri.. feels MUCH better!

- Received a compliment from my Chairman's PA on fri when i went for a meeting.

Dawn: "Have i seen you before?"
Ju: "Of crse you have.. we met a month back."
Dawn: "Really? You look much prettier now! The manager downstairs was asking about you.. said you are very pretty."
Ju: "Awww... you just made my day!"

Pardon me... for someone who is still round around the edges, this sure is an ego booster! ;)

- Had Koi THREE times this week! *beams*

1.45pm: Ohh.. Megan just dozed off. Early for her nap....

Okay.. this is something I have to blog about!

After our movie last night, It was 8pm when we reached home. Grandma and Grandpa came to babysit Megan and Grandma was giving Megan her night feed after her bath. Megan was still bright-eyed and smiley. She looked so happy to see us and was pumping her legs away. Grandma was carrying her and I was standing nearby. She caught my eye and started smiling and pumping her legs in glee. I made the action to tickle her and she started to chuckle. She chuckles, she squeals.. This went on for like 5 mins or so.. hahahha. She is just sooooo cute! Gosh, i just so love her chuckles! Pity Zack didnt take a vid of it.....   

Gonna feed Megan meat today!
hope she likes it.
now that she is 8 months, there are so many things to feed her!
beef, chicken, fish, egg yolk..
but the 4-day wait rule is quite a chore..

Dating 101: 5 Traits of Mr. Right

I know i'm way past this.. but thought this article is useful for all you single/attached ladies out there. It rings true! Makes for light reading on a Monday too ;)

have a break..
have a read..
have a kit kat!

Think your Mr. Next has the potential to be Mr. Right? Before you leap without looking, take an honest inventory. See how many of the following five essential traits he possesses.

Dating Trait #1: He listens to you

The best way to know if Mr. Next is interested in (and worthyof) being a candidate for Mr. Right? He listens to you. You'll know he's listening when he shows genuine concern, consistently remembers things you've told him (your birthday, favorite food, best friend's name, etc.), and offers emotional support in honest and thoughtful ways.

Dating Trait #2: He connects with you easily

We've all been in those relationships that take W-O-R-K (and suck the life force out of us in the process). When a relationship works on its own, it feels effortless, easy, and fluid. You don't have to force anything, forgive anyone, or turn a blind eye to red flags or gut-twisters. Instead, you communicate and collaborate with comfort, compatibility, and undeniable chemistry. If and when you experience this kind of interaction, you are on to something really special.

Dating Trait #3: He wants the real you

So often, women feel the need to sacrifice some part of themselves to make a relationship work. In the right relationship, there's no need. You don't have to hide, tone down, or apologize for any aspect of you or your fabulous life. With the right partner, you're not only able to be yourself, but you're better able to be the best version of your most authentic self -- no compromises needed.

Dating Trait #4: He's trustworthy

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. But a relationship with abundant trust? A fabulous foundation for real and lasting love! Built over time, trust is based on the simple belief system that your partner has your best interests at heart and will never intentionally hurt you (and vice versa). If and when you discover that Mr. Next is 100 percent trustworthy, you'll have no trouble giving your heart to him. In return, he'll most likely give you his heart and pave the way for a lasting, loving relationship to unfold.

Dating Trait #5: He enriches your life

In the wrong relationship, your partner tears you to emotional shreds, brings you down, and in general drains your energy. In the right relationship, he enriches your life, inspires you to be your best self, and brings a sense of peace and possibility to you. You'll know Mr. Next is enriching your life if and when he encourages and supports you professionally, personally, and spiritually. And when he does, he may just be Mr. Right!

Does your Mr. Next possess all five qualities? If so, congratulations! You have done your homework, chosen wisely, and are now well positioned for relationship success.

If not, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back into the dating pool with a clearer understanding of who you want to date. Remember, finding your life partner isn't always easy, but by being clear, honoring yourself, and acting accordingly, you'll cut down on wasted time with Mr. Wrong and Mr. Next, and ultimately make room for Mr. Right.

Blind eye to red flags.. no trust.. lies.. lack of respect.. reminds me of a relationship I know of. Hmmm.... Nevertheless, it is a good case study.

....had a great time with my hubby this evening :)

as we wait for Daddy to finish his reel purchase...

"Nooo...!! not Mummy's ludlow!!!!"

The CHOCOLATE WORLD... and my silly sweet indulgence!

Woke up that morning.. and thought, "Let's go somewhere today!"
We tossed up some places...
1) Musuem to see the Egyptian artefacts
2) Bird Park
3) Science Centre
4) Resorts World - won

Packed our stuff, pretty up Megan and off we went!

Sleeping Beauty Castle!!!

"You wanna take a shot? Quick! I slow down for you."


2 entrance.. smart way to make money.


$6 for 1st hour.
$2 for subsequent hour.

WTH!!!!


on a tram...
the carpark is so huge there are trams stops.


Universal Studios

Sun was glaring so we took refuge in the Chocolate World!

and of crse... not without some shots first.. ha!


gosh.. the pic reminds me (AGAIN!) how Megan looks exactly like Zack!!!
asked him how it feels having a mini-me...
he just puffed up his chest and grinned away.
the resemblance.. so uncanny!




clearly Daddy's heart is completely stolen.. :)

HERSHEY'S.....

many many fun there!
probably the highlight of our trip.. haha..




"Hershey's Strawberry!"


"Daddy, I want a Hershey's Kiss too!"


"please Daddy.... pleaaasssse."

with a face like this.. she gets everything *melts*






the cushions are so cool!










Left Hershey's and strolled around the premise...
checked in on Megan and guess what?
She was asleep!

*sigh* :)





The row of decadent living...


Victoria's Secret!
1st store in Singapore...

though i heard it's pathetic... i still gotta check it out.
as said... it's miserable.
the prices?
Undies: 5 for S$70!!!!!
I can get 5 for US$25 online!
Zack gave me $100 to buy whatever I fancy *beams*
but i came out of the store empty handed..

Online is still the way to go..
and it's fun too!





Brought Megan for a diaper change
and realised the lighting in there was good!
know what that means? ;)







"I wonder what is Mummy & Daddy doing now?"





Ah yes.. the CASINO

Levy: $100
:S


"Can we go home now?"

Under 3 hours.
Carpark charge: $10!
Resorts World.. will NOT be one of our leisure outing venues.

But I left with a song in my heart!

Zack bought me a Hershey's Kiss!
hugging it even as I type this :P)
He offered to buy me but i declined initially..
thought it was a waste of money - i dont need a cushion
i'm getting quite practical these days)
though i secretly thought it was awfully cute.
Then i pondered: if my hubby wanna dote on me, why.. let him! :P

Wife happy, Hubby happy!
see the little things that makes me happy... cheap date! hehe..
oh silly sweet indulgence... makes the heart smile :)

Another highlight!
On our way home, Zack drove me Marine Parade to buy my Koi!!!!
That probably touched me more than the Kiss.. *beams*

The Kiss bubbles it up.
The Koi spills it over.

:)

Oh lovely day.. how sweet your kiss~

JU... IS RECHARGED AND VERY VERY HAPPY! :)



to Zack: XOXO! :)

We're going to Resorts World today!

Sunny weather.. nice to have some wind though.
Zack said he'll buy me my Koi today :)
Going to check out the VS store!!!
Megan doesn't wanna nap so let's have an early bath today.

And I'm wondering how on earth did Megan managed to entangle a double knot??


Let's go get ready now baby!

I'm a Hottie!
(from the lovely Sy.. who is enjoying life in HKG right now!)

"this is why i'm hot! this is why you're not!"

With Love from Hokkaido...

(from my lovely sister)

a musical box.
not so much a box.. more like an egg :)

an old-fashioned gal.. trapped in a modern world

Had a short chat with a gf yesterday. We were chatting on being a mother and working. She has 2 gals, taken care of by her mum, MIL and domestic helper. We both were talking about how tough it is to be a SAHM. She chose to go back to work and I told her that I had decided to stay home to look after Megan and manged to get a job that I am able to work from home. That wasn't my inital route (there were plans to get domestic help while i work full time) but after Megan was out, I couldnt bear the idea of someone else caring for her.. thus the change of plan. She advised me to let go (of the attachment with Megan).

That got me thinking.

Is this what women these days got to do? To let go of the innate need and desire to care and nurture the baby I bring into this world. Perhaps coming from a conventional family where my mum, a homemaker, was always around, I see it as the right way of life. I bring this child into this world, I'm her mother. It sounds totally absurb to me that another person has to look after her. No one can care for her the way I do. I'm not the best mother nor do i always know if i am doing right by her. But she is mine and i want to give her the best that i can give. At this point in life, it's time, love and care.

I want to be there for her first crawl, her first step, her first fall. To cook her meals, to make sure she is eating right, that she is clean and healthy. I want to be there when she needs someone to talk to, when she has a bad day at school, or a crush in class. My mum was all that to me. I remember coming home from school and chatting with my mum about my day while she prepares lunch. It meant alot knowing that she is always around for me.

I want to be a mother. A good one. A role of a mother, is not one i take lightly.

But unfortunately many women are unable to do it these days. More so in this part of the world. While some chose to go back to work, many didn't have a choice. I am blessed enough to find a job that enables me to be a SAHM at the same time - that's a testimonial worthy of its own post. I do not want to pay someone to do the most important job that i've been blessed with.

Having said all these.. it's proving to be a challenge.

I'm afraid of not being able to cope. Caring for Megan is a full day job. By the time she sleeps at 8pm, i'm usually totally wiped out. When i cook dinner, it's 11pm by the time i finished washing! Everyone should try it for a day.. i'm serious. I'm wondering how am I able to slot in time for work. And Zack gotta pull up his socks around the house. He has gotten used to living like a king with someone washing up after him. I am gonna have an added responsibility, he has to chip in now.

Men always have it easier. It's tougher to be a women these days.

Do you not think I miss dolling up, wearing sleek suits, pretty clothes, sashying in 3".. interacting with people, leisure lunches. Some days I feel cooped up at home, washing and cleaning.. more so than ever cos Megan is mobile now and the house gotta be clean. Pappe sheds fur like nobody's business and that didnt help one bit. I get frustrated and do yearn for company (so thank God for the internet). Bringing Megan out for long period means upseting her feeding routine cos now i prepare her food. Unless I can take along a portable stove. Now looking at ways i can pre-cook/pack the food. But then I look at her and think... everything is worth it. She's worth it :)

cool rainy day.
offer letter signed.
shopping at vivo with Zack & Megan.
sipping hot latte at starbucks.
2 earrings.
1 paperback (latest JD Robb!!!)

= 1 Happy Ju!




aren't they pretty?!
not so much a shoes or bag gal.. but i sure am an earrings gal! ;)


and now i'm off to spend my night with JB Robb!
sweet dreams~

Friday's tale from Sy: THE HAPPIEST FAIRY TALE EVER

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl 'Will you marry me?'
The girl said, 'NO!'

And the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, drank whole bottles of wine, chatted for hours on the phone to friends, always had a clean house, watched chick flicks without feeling guilty, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, didn't have to pay for dual view tv, travelled more, had a career, had many lovers, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself. She went to the theatre, never watched sports, owned every remote control in the house, never wore friggin lacy lingerie that went up her arse, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, and felt and looked fabulous all the time.

THE END



AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!
true to a certain extent!

Went down to PP to get some grocery and lunch...
And had a surreal experience - I thought i was in China! The guy who cooked my noodles was a PRC, the lady who brewed my tea was a PRC... and the lady who tried selling me household wares at the atrium was ALSO a PRC! What happened to our chatty neighbourhood aunties?!! Gosh.....

have a sudden urge for some place quiet..
too noisy here..
my head is screaming..
my heart is pounding..
can't think straight..


would rather be a Talking Beaver in Narnia than an Eve in this world..
i need beauty and peace..
everything in this world is just so wrong..
more so in this part..
values.. principles.. priorities..


can i pack my bag now?

News: World's smallest man dead at 21

LONDON (AFP) - – The world's shortest man, He Pingping, who stood just over two feet five inches tall (75 centimetres), has died, Britain's Guinness World Records said Monday. He was 21.

He -- a native of China who had a form of primordial dwarfism and measured 74.61 centimetres -- was in Rome taking part in a television show when he suffered chest problems.

He was taken to hospital, where he died over the weekend.

Craig Glenday, editor-in-chief of London-based Guinness World Records, recalled measuring He in the northern Chinese region of Inner Mongolia in 2008.

"For such a small man, he made a huge impact around the world," Glenday said.

"From the moment I laid on eyes on him, I knew he was someone special -- he had such a cheeky smile and mischievous personality, you couldn't help but be charmed by him," he said.

"He brightened up the lives of everyone he met, and was an inspiration to anyone considered different or unusual."

Guinness World Records said it would announce He's successor as the world's shortest man in due course.

Khagendra Thapa Magar, 18, from Nepal, who is reportedly 51 centimetres (20 inches) high, declared in February that he is the rightful holder of the title.

75cm?!
Oh my.. he is 7cm taller than Megan!

Backdated Post: Last thurs evening, the Chans went to Carrefour!

Baby Chan had some fun in the toy department..


and Mummy Chan said, "Let's have a Girls Night In! Just the 2 of us... let's not invite Daddy."

Baby Chan said, "But Mummy, I wanna sleeeeeeep."

Mummy Chan reply, "How about some Ben&Jerrys' ice cream??"


Baby Chan perked up, "Okay!"