someone's big day is coming!
been cracking my head on what to get
by a stroke of genius..
I SEE THE LIGHT!

is someone getting something(s)???
hmmm.. or... maybe not....?
maybe something else will come along..?

hehe..


yells: BENONI.. oi, you've not told me when you will be coming back??!!!

the magic words..

zack: "shall we go for a cruise?"

me: *stars twinkling in my eyes*


but it wouldnt be anytime til Jan next year..
we'll see how things go..
at least there's something to look forward to..

*grin*

my 3rd visit to the doc's in 1 week
*sheesh*

been coughing til my abs hurt
i dun even need the gym now
on ventolin and steriods
then my dear sis told me steriods makes me fat!
*gasps*
ai.. anything to stop me from coughing my oesophagus out

doc's orders:
and apart from abstaining a list of food..
i cant talk


okie.. gotta go do my homework.. which is....

CHECKING OUT HOME DECO MAGS!!!!!


*4 days more!*

*cough*

so other then coughing my lungs out.. burning my head off.. sleeping my bed flat.. i havent been up to anything.. so here's a couple of stuff my drug-induced brain can sieve out:

caught Harry Potter on Sat.. but i was so stoned i couldnt even work out any excitement.. sheesh.. i felt so cheated! We caught it with Adrian and Irene (zack's bro and soon-to-be sis-in-law) at Great World City. It was the first time zack double dated with his brother.. cant imagine catching a movie with my sis and Andrew.. haha.. we had the famous beef noodles at Purvis Street.. spent the time chatting bout house reno.. cos their house is undergoing reno now and they are going to ROM in Jan!

and if you must know.. was kinda disappointed with Harry Potter movie.. read the Globet of Fire again to prepare myself for the movie but it kinda fall short (they didnt even show the Quidditch World Cup!) then again, how do you expect to cram the entire book into a 2.5 hr movie.. oh well.

right... now for the 2nd piece of news which is also the best! This was what happened: Last friday, Zack went to his parent's house to collect his mails and our HDB letter.. when he reached home, he told me it was only a Letter of approval for our Mortgage Loan Application.. *burst my bubble* we had our dinner.. then he picked up the newspaper and was idly flipping thru it.. and exclaimed: "oh.. how come there's another letter inside?" i was thinking it must be some SK jewellery flyer or the likes.. then he pulled out the thick A4 HDB envelope! *SCREAMS* the cobwebs in my brain cleared away instantly! ahhhh... that cheeky monkey pulled a good one on me! *muaks* WE ARE COLLECTING OUR HOUSE KEYS THIS SATURDAY!! *wooohooo...!*

so its a brand new headache for us now.. house reno.. bank loans.. interior designers.. where to start???!!! i guess our most pressing issue at hand is to put our heads together and decide on our home deco.. we tried last night and kept butting heads (i was also stoned.. but who put a glass door in a kitchen right!) so our homework now is to work on the deco ourselves then come together and see how our deco differs.. hehe.. i cant wait to see our end product *grins*

*gulps*

this excerpt is from one of my email chit chat with ant.. and of crse, this is from an incoming mail..

sheesh... no wonder you always smell funny... *eeeewwwww*

"I finished Prince Caspian in nearly one night u know... Read half the book sitting on the toilet, didnt want to get up and stop reading. Then read some more in bed. Then remembered i didnt clean myself after getting up from the toilet so went back in. And then had to change my sheets. Then went to sleep with 5 pages to go."

had a conversation with a friend yesterday..

his questions were:

are you accepting the most suitable person that comes along?
or you are gonna wait for the best?

and my question was:

what constitutes 'the best' person? define 'best'..

was pondering and running thru' the questions in my head on the way home.. i've got my answers.. then i was pondering and tossing the answers around..

i've got no checklist.. list of virtues.. list of flaws.. i dun want to be on one end of the balancing scale neither do i want to put someone on it.. (who is more outgoing? who is sweeter?..) if i ever am or do, then i seriously question that love.

it's how i dun want him to love me cos i'm sweet, nice, pretty, sexy, funny etc... but knowing how i get grumpy when i'm disturbed from my nap.. hurt him with the things i say.. get jealous and unreasonable.. am a tough cookie fighter cock.. am insensitive to his feelings.. and yet he loves me.. with all my imperfections

just how i love him not cos he is the sweetest, sexiest, gentlest guy.. i love him even when he plays his stoopid game til 4am.. even when he hurt me with words when we argue.. even when he refuses to wash the toilet.. even when he doesnt always understand me.. inspite of these.. i love him.. with all my heart

when you love a person.. you are not blind to his flaws.. and you love him all the same.. you wanna make him happy.. you do little things to put that smile on his face.. you buy the little things he likes.. you make sure he is covered under the quilt at night.. you worry about his safety when he's on the road.. you think about him when you're apart.. even when he hurt you, you always find it in your heart to forgive him..

so what's the best?

it's really simple.. really. That's when you truly love someone.. he/she naturally becomes THE BEST.. and if you are still questioning yourself.. then... GOOD LUCK!

back from the doc's..

instructions:
no peanuts (no loss)
no eggs
no chicken
no milk (not even yoghurt!)

then what can i frigging eat?!!!!

just finished watching I Am Sam (by Sean Penn) on tv. Didnt catch it in the cinema and was rather skeptical bout watching it tonight.. i tend to steer clear from movies that messes up my heartstrings. Anyway, i had to fold the clothes so turned the tv on and there it was.. sheesh, i was right.. 45mins into the movie and i was crying my eyes out.. felt everything.. anger.. pain.. hurt.. some funny parts but it just didnt feel right to laugh..

how can watching a show leave me feeling so raw..? been feeling emo of late.. feel like some pressure cooker at times.. anything set me off.. and sometimes, there were consequences to bear..


close your heart..
silly gal
hide your eyes..
silly gal
nobody wanna see your tears..
silly gal
nobody wanna hear your fears..
silly gal

go to bed now
silly gal..


*lost and scared..*

still cant believe i missed D&D
boy i'm glad i did!!!!
or i'll be in for a ride

its MTV night so there'll be 'Awards' presented..
.... got a sms last night from my colleague telling me i was nominated for the Sexy Figure Award! sheesh.. if i was there, i'd be up on stage doing crazy stuff.. probably some catwalk or something.. in front of 100 over people! *phew* (DAVID TAN! YOU SABO ME! - he's the chairman for our Social Recreation Committee this year)

i missed all that fun..

oh well

why didnt i go?
well.. for various reasons

"ju ah.. u havent show color yet?"

(i'm all deck in my tee and jeans and specs!!)

cant believe i'm not going for D&D
i never miss such events!
love dolling up..
makeup.. hair.. pretty clothes..
*sigh*

sheesh...
gotta get outta the office soon
everyone's bugging me bout not going

D&D tonight..

i'm not going

"eating snake"

today marks the 1st time in my working life (albeit a short one) i had this delicacy

3.30pm
david needed a break so asked me to accompany him to YaKun
to destress

see..? people leading me astray.. tsk tsk


(for the benefit of those who doesnt know the meaning of "eat snake", its the hokkien equivalent of skiving)


6.30pm
and the blardee auditors (from New York) are driving me crazy!!! i'd do my boogie dance when i see the hide of them tomorrow!!!

ahhhh.... i'm going home now!

Shopping Keeps Your Brain Young

was reading this old copy of Reader's Digest (not some trashy fashion mag) and came across this article. Wow... just know i have to share this! Enjoy! :D

Women live longer than men because they shop more. That's what husband-and-wife team Guy McKhann and Marilyn Albert, both professors at John Hopkins University and authors of Keep Your Brain Young, have theorised after a ten-year study of 3000 elderly people that assessed how physical and mental activities help people live longer and have more productive lives. Shopping keeps older women physically active (bags to lug), challenges the brain (a trip to the shops involves hundreds of choices) and boosts self esteem (a sense of accomplishment results).

Meanwhile, Grandpa is on the sofa watching television - an activity that fails to challenge in any of these areas. Retailers love such studies, but puzzles and card games might be cheaper ways to keep the brain active, and a walk is as effective as a lap around a mall.

right.... forget about the last sentence.. puzzles and card games aint gonna boosts your self-esteem.. do i hear an Amen from all the women out there??

like i always tell zack.... part of why we women shop are for the sake of u guys too.. when we look good, u feel proud too right *dun bluff* so u see... its really for u guys.. the sacrifices we make.. our aching arms.. our sore feet.. and to think u guys always grumble when u see our shopping bags.. hai.. the indignation we suffer... poor women..

had a crazy morning
had a crazy afternoon
payroll is driving me up the wall
everything is driving me up the wall *sigh*
must have ran 2.4km ard the office
in my 4-inches killer stilettoes
legs are breaking now

its a quarter pass 6
office is getting quiet
the quiet hum of the aircon

i'm tired
been a long day
think i'd go home soon

.... and clean the house
*sigh*


i'd just better not go anywhere near my bed


oh.. and i just received my 1st Christmas dinner invitation.. from Jon (my big boss)... at his house.. Let the feast begins!

the other night..
i dreamt of you..

they always say time heals..
then tell me..
why was the pain so acute?
why were the tears warm?

they lied..

the night-ling strikes again

woke up from my nap
had a nice hot shower
followed by my nightly rituals
which comprises of..
piling a kazillion stuff on my face
hydrating my birthdaysuit
women.. all about maintenance
whoever said being a women is easy

had a talk with David about friends today.. friends 'politics' in the office.. kinda baffled me cos couldnt exactly comprehend why friends (in the office or general) can have so much conflict.. well, as least to me.. i like to keep things easygoing.. but i guess when ppl get too close, expectations set in and when these arent met.. unhappiness arise..

got me pondering..

me? i like things easy.. but when someone gets too demanding.. i pull away.. it happened once.. its sad.. but her demands were more than i could handle.. only a handful i hold close to my heart (you know who you are).. whom i allow into the 'circle of trust' :D

grab me tighter and i run faster..

as what someone said.. i'm like an iron.. takes awhile to warm up.. but when i warm up.. i'm hot! sometimes i warm up (eventually).. sometimes i dont (ever).. call me stuckup but thats me. i've got good vibes about ppl and i trust my instincts.

another area that got me pondering over..

why come to a point where you depend entirely on someone (be it partner or friend) to fulfill your needs? to make you happy.. keep you company etc.. and when you dun get it, it upsets you.. isnt that too heavy a responsibility for anyone? that whatever that person say or do either makes you or breaks you.. it's scary when someone has that much impact over you.. dun ever come to that.. i'm learning.. to fulfill my needs on my own.. if i need comfort, i find it.. i dun depend on someone for it.. cos people fail you.. if they dun, smile and be thankful.. and if they do, dun waste time and energy blaming them.. look elsewhere for what you need.. sounds selfish? i think not.. it's survival.. at certain point in your life, you'd have certain needs.. it's up to you, not your partner.. or a friend.. to find ways to meet them.

sheesh.. no idea what set me off on this tangent
the night always does this to me



3.30am
off to bed i go..
got the whole bed to myself tonight! and a lovely sight awaits me when i wake :)

is it friday?

doesnt feel like it

i've realised..
retail therapy is shortlived
lifespan is an approximate 4 hours
after the 4th hour..
that euphoria dissipates
and you are left feeling..
that same old, same old way

endorphins?
gym this afternoon..
abs gonna ache big time tomorrow
have not fully recovered from my workout on Tuesday
been walking funny the past 2 days (butt ache)

realised a couple of my colleagues lost some weight
sheesh.. they dun look good
boobs and butt got smaller
their head looks bigger than their bod
(thank goodness they dun read this blog)
point being.. its not that good to be too thin
perhaps i dun need to lose any weight uh
people always say i'm nuts when i say i need to lose weight
perhaps.. i'm a tad too paranoid.. (as zack always say)
at least i'm still wearing XS and got some boobs and butt
but still...
i'd prob look better 2 kg lighter
aiyah.. WOMEN!


my hp beeped..

"bought you milk tea :)"

i got milk tea waiting for me at home!
*beams*

tooth and nail

the other night..
we were checking out some interior designers websites
and browsing some home deco mags
i am tenacious when it comes to home designing
meaning.. i know what i want
right down to the exact shade of wall color

i look at zack and thought...
"i've finally found my match.."

we are so going to have fun fighting!!! wooohoooo....!

typed a really long post (twice!)
blogger screwed up and my post got lost (twice!)
oh well
maybe i'm not meant to post it after all

busy monday
no time to wallow in the blues
which is good
had my brows thread at Little India
sheesh.. after so many months
it still makes me wince

a conference call at 7pm tonight
should i do the call from home?
or should i hang around the office?

just had teh beng (milk tea) ice cream
it tastes.... erm.....
think it just about wean me off my milk tea craving
so... yeah

my exasperation and my joy
my frustration and my love

who is she?
my baby

a window or a door?

casual chit chat opens to a window of opportunity
same environment
different department
an entirely different jobscope
definitely something to think about
when i'm getting restless
and things are getting onerous

is God's hand in it?

with more commitments setting in
cant afford any drastic impulsive moves

enjoy what you are doing?

zack worked for a record of 16 hours last night
14 calls in total
1 call takes an average of 1 hour
meals and toilet breaks?
go figure.
he came home at 12.30am last night
looking exhausted and hungry (hadnt had his dinner)
with all smiles! *amazing*

there can only be 2 reasons:
1) i'm so beautiful that his face lights up everytime he sees me *dun choke*
2) he just love his job

hate to say this.. but i think its the latter

me?
i start counting down to 5.30pm the minute i step into the office

oh! did i mention i saw a mini denium skirt at Forever21?!!! it has flowers motif on the side and it's just lovely! I WANT!!!!!! Siying said it was real cute too... til she saw the price tag and dragged me away

it's 68 bucks

*sobs*

and zack refused to let me buy when he heard where the hem stops..

*pout*

RETAIL THERAPY is always therapeutic
more so when its done with your darling gfs
as usual its yakking, yakking and more yakking
and when 4 women shop, its chaotic
but so satisfying...
no worrying if anyone is getting impatient outside the dressing room
or need to fill his bottomless stomach
or wearing out his long legs walking from takashimaya to far east
*heh*

in short, shopping and men cant be used in the same sentence
when it comes to shopping.. women just understand women. period.

so we did a little shopping then agreed to have dinner at wisma's newest foodcourt
gosh its HUGE... and i love the deco!
the aroma from the stalls were tantalizing
or perhaps thats cos i was starving
but we waited about 45mins for a blardee table!

(an insight: people with small kids are extremely good at grabbing tables.. their kids do the ugly job of running to the table when there are people already there waiting! and who can fight with a kid... i hate those parents.. they are uncouth, kiasu and so frigging ill-mannered! its disgusting!)

yeah, i'm speaking from experience and my growling stomach certainly didnt help

was the 1st to rush off to get my beef noodles once we got a table
and the 3 gals just have to buy the hokkien mee with the longest queue!

then it was more shopping!
(didnt get much though just some lingerie)
and after many whinings from Jo
we finally proceed to Cafe Cartel at Cineleisure
didnt realise how tired we were til we sat down

but it was good
caught up with each other
(though Jane drove us crazy with her whining)
planning a short holiday out of town!

caught Sky High with zack at PS thereafter
funny and entertaining.. a must watch!
and boy i love Kelly Preston!
before the movie started, trailer of Narnia was shown
its gonna be sooooo good!
i cant wait!!!

6pm
time to get ready
meeting Godma and Rachel for dinner at Lau Pa Sat


wanna sleep.. *yawns*