goodbye Frittonia... you will be missed...

Serene bought me this plant for my bday.. name's Frittonia.. i cared for it.. i really did...


but 4 months later.....

it died.... :(

jeez, on holiday mood now.. dun feel like working..
another 4 hours of work then i'm done for the week..
not that i've been at work much this week.. hehehe..
but everyday at work is truly madness.. sigh..
going to have a talk with Theresa & Cindy about my workload..
imagine 'serving' 3 bosses! plus our High and mighty Mr Roger Wilkinson!
met Seok Ching on the way home today and she asked me who do i manage it at all..
told her i'm dying here..
and i look like crap *sobs*
its madness..

but its awright! managed to recharge some energy lost!
2 days of bumming... :)

Tuesday - Slept til 2pm! Wicked! Bum ard in the afternoon then had Ichiban Sushi for dinner at PS.. much better than Sakae.. variety of sushi is more interesting.. Highly recommended!
Caught 'National Treasure'. It was ok.. just another movie flick.. the treasure hunt was pretty entertaining but the ending was kinda disappointing..

Wednesday - Went to the bank :) wasnt done til about 4 plus, rushed home to grab pappe and packed a basket then off we go for our PICNIC @ EAST COAST!

Pappe had her 2nd dunk! was so cute watching her swim, legs were in swimming mode (imagine crab!) before we even dropped her into the sea.. she had so much fun racing ard the beach and much to my chagrin, wriggling in the sand.. didnt charge my batt and only managed to take 4 shots before it died on us! Bummer!


Sky looks kinda gloomy.. dirty sand.. miss Krabi sooooo much... :(


SMILE!

The thought of all that cleaning up when we reach home puts me off.. zack bathed pappe while i clean & tidy the house.. After 45 mins of cleaning.. i realised that both of them are clean, fed and comfortably sitting on the sofa watching soccer while i'm still sticky & hungry and mopping the floor! sigh sigh... suffering ju.. sigh... sob sob...

End of my break! Needed that sooooo much :)

back from 2 days of leave..
was a chore getting outta bed this morning..
had a lovely relaxing 2 days :)
blog bout it later...
meanwhile, clearing as much of my work coz i'm leaving office soon!

idea came about when i was getting ready for work..
taking the afternoon off today..
to surprise someone! ;P

people are always asking me.. "what do u want for Christmas?"
i crack my head and think.. but i just cant come up with an answer..

now i finally know..
I want a gift that comes from the heart..

Boxing Day today! not many presents to box anyway... but i'm thankful for each and every one of them :)

went to wala to celebrate christmas eve...
EIC wasnt playing that night *bummer*
The Unexpected was.. wasnt too psyched about the lead singer..
dun ask me why.. prob coz of her attitude.. loadsa it!
one more self realisation that night..
I am a moody / broody drunk..
or maybe its just an amplification of wats inside..

dun generally dislike anyone..
but there's this someone i dun have good vibes about..
wonder why..

spent Christmas at Zack's church.. small and cosy..
really nice to attend a small church..
where everyone knows everyone..
folks there are real friendly and not pushy..
wonder how is Trinity's christmas service like this year..
first time in years i didnt spend my christmas at Trinity.. missed it

then we are off to Kevin & Charmaine's church wedding..
gosh, this is by far the most romantic wedding i've attended..
i teared!! & i dun even know them personally!
(some background info: Kevin was the drummer in Zack's band)
Kevin sang this song to Charmaine and he teared..
gosh.. i teared too...
then there was this part where the wedding couple thanked their parents..
more tears..
and i was thinking i am never ever going to be able to do that..
it stabbed me..
i teared..
everything was just so beautiful..
i was turning into a fountain..

was an emotional wreck yesterday..

know wats one of the worst feeling one can feel?
having to smile when u feel like your heart has just been stabbed..
having to talk and laugh when all u wanna do is hide in a corner and weep..
no one sees wats inside..
coz i conceal it well..

maybe it lies with me
coz i cant see my worth
i try and i try and i try
to win that love
to prove that i am worthwhile
maybe i dun even have to
maybe i just dunno any other way
was so sure of myself
but i'm wavering now

spending the sun afternoon alone with my thoughts..
too many to keep me occupied..
had some words of caution from my dear friend..
thanks pal, appreciate your concern..
i hear u, i do..
headache brewing
hope i snap outta it soon..

my last day of the week! yippeeee....
really needed this break badly..
been working like a horse.. *groans*
need to go for stress management..
then plan my early retirement.. hahaha..

life's pretty back to normal..
with zack all done with his training & back to his shift..
no more 5 days of absence :)
terribly onerous..

things happening.. many things..
things i dun wanna think about..
life's like a whirlpool..

year end approaching..
most eventful year of my life i would say..
my happiest moments..
my saddest moments..
all stacked up within these 12 months..
cried the most..
laughed the loudest..

but i've grown the most..

wat made my morning sweeter?

when someone plops outta bed and said...
"i'll prepare breakfast for u.."

cant remember the last time someone prepared breakfast for me..
had my breakfast prepared for me this morning..
by my sweetheart.. *big smile*
turkey breast with melted cheese sandwich..
awesome.. :)

left home with a warmth in my heart..
a skip in my step..

funny how little things seem to matter more..

Burnt out

finally settled down after a long day... or week for that matter...
totally burnt out...
intended to blog about Roger's farewell dinner (tonight) but am just too tired...
its been hell of a week (excuse my language)...
my eyerings are seriously dark..
havent been zzzzzzz much..
too much work to do at work..
all that bad stress..
lost some weight..
exhausted..

felt this sudden surge of emotion..
akin to loneliness..
never felt this way for a long while..

need hugs..

sweetheart, sorry i couldnt talk long with u just now..
didnt even get to bid u sweet dreams..
wish i had made your day a little better for u..
sorry if i didnt..
just want u to know that as i go about my daily chores..
u're always on my mind.... always....


*crawling to bed...*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANDSOME!!!

Its your special day today sweet! though u are stuck at some ulu isle, do hope u haf a good time :) hang in there, it'll be over in 2 days time! cant wait for sunday to come! we'll go do something special when u come back ya.. *hugz*

love u tons! *loadsa hugz & kisses!*



bought something today but i'm not telling..
i surprise myself sometimes..

my morning just got brighter!

just received a call from zack! *big silly grin*

but the bad news is that this is his last call until fri or sat..
coz they will be going outfield..
at some ulu island..
take very good care & be careful k..
i wanna see my boy safe & sound without a scratch on sun *hugz*

5 more days..

worry not sweet, i'll be good!
(i've always been good, wat am i talking about?!)
no galivanting while u're away ;P

miss u sooo much....

My prayer..

Dear Lord,

Place your hand of protection over zack as he go about his daily activities at OBS. Grant him courage in the face of challenges, strength for back-breaking work, comfort when he is alone.

Above all, keep him safe and sound... and bring him safely back to me..


In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen

weekend flew by just like that..
sunday seems eons away..

on a lil island north east..
so near yet so far..

lousy today..
monday blues?
or something more..

why am i doing so much..
i've got nothing to prove..

nothing to my name..
nothing accomplished..
just an entity..
surviving..
alone..
in this huge void..

i'm tired..
... in every sense


leave me be..
i beseech..
just leave me be

terribly crazy day..
been working non-stop since the minute i stepped in office..
bone-tired..
yes, probably guessed it right..
payroll time..
huge load off when i passed the 3 envelopes to my dispatch..

Christmas should NEVER be spelt as Xmas!
how can there be no Christ in Christmas?

Christmas is coming!
baking mince pies & eggnog! :)




tired..... *stoning*

ahhh.... i'm sore all over *groans*
calves, thighs, butt, arms, abs
had a full body workout yesterday
gym during lunch, tennis after work
gosh, i'm asking for it!
but i feel so 'worked out'... ahhhhh......

tennis session was really good!
tried my hand at tennis for the first time & i lurve it!
played with David, Vikram & Eugene at civil service club from 7 - 9pm..
went with 12 balls and left with none.. lol!
for the record, i only hit 2 balls outta the court.. heheh
need to work on my serve and backhand
said to be pretty good for a beginner! :P

WHO WANNA PLAY TENNIS???!!!
going to queensway after the 15th to buy my Head racket!
& someone is going to kill me if i wear a tennis skirt.. hehe

been so tired the past few days..
will be for the entire week for that matter

my week..
mon: went town shopping then running at night
tue: tennis
wed: Roger's christmas dinner
thur: dinner with Ben & Ant
fri: ZACK BOOKS OUT!
sat: tanning @ sentosa (if i can wake up....)

home late every night..
neglected my pappe... *sorry sweetheart*
really conked out when i get home
wanted to bathe pappe last night but was just so tired to do much
only managed to feed her, had a shower, clean the house a lil..
then talk to my boy :)

i miss u...

DA ALBUM...

Awright peeps,

posting the pics i had been promising..
all at one go... in this album!

Enjoy! ;)

(having prob with Hello, so pics up slowly.. watch this space!)


zack's new toy... presenting Ah peh zack!

byeee decks....


da lil imps...

Banana walnut cake! baked by zack with a special ingredient called 'L' :)

pasta with scallops & crabstick.. my health food when i was down with food poisoning... cooked by my sweetie.. watta lovely thing to wake up to when u are feeling awful :) got sudden craving for it... *hint hint*

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Presenting..... CROWN OF THORNS!!!


Last gig...

Andy, Chris, Zack, Fugene & Kelvin.. u guys are smashing! Keep the fire burning dudes!

watched Singapore Idol?
too hyped up i say..
guest of honour is President SR Nathan??
gimme a break please..
kinda disappointed with the contestants / finalists..
perhaps my expectations are a tad too high..
more so after watching American Idol..

and the judges sux..
why do we need judges who are practically reading off a script..
when their comments are structured for viewer's entertainment..

taufik vs sly?
Singapore Idol?
its just showbiz peeps, just showbiz..

o well.. shrug :)

reaching office very early this week..
coz i've gotta personal chauffeur! hehehe..
zack's on office hours this week..
so we get to come to work together..
only bummer is that he starts work at 8am..
that means i gotta wake up 45mins earlier..
but i dun mind one bit!
thanks sweet for the rides... muacks! :)

i'm so so sleeeepy now..
how can i last til 5.30pm..

things i must do when i get home:
- sweep / mop the floor
- laundry
- pack my room
- install my office
- bring pappe for a walk (think she is bored crazy & she is driving me crazy!)

things i must NOT do when i get home:
- get anywhere near my bed before my chores are done

*yawns*

holiday bug itching.. BANGKOK IN JAN!!! who wants to join me?!!!!

Planet Fitness

question now is....

Should i sign up for Planet Fitness?!?!

only $600 for a years' membership..
loadsa classes available..
pilates.. body combat.. street jazz (thing that caught my eye!) etc..
studio next to my office..
got kakis to go with..
can workout during lunch or after work!

going for a 1 week trial next week..
hmm... wat do u guys think?
anyone wanna join me?? ;P

jeez, feeling stiff... need to stretch those muscles..

*excited*

... wala closed for reno
... eyes are hurting
... wasted the entire day
... need motivation

... wats wrong?

I'm back!

worst is not over! but the pressure is off :) Company Christmas lunch is round the corner and somehow i gotta the feeling that I will be in charge of food (again).. why do i always end up with the task of feeding people? *ponders*

Some messages for my dear friends... sorry, too lazy to sms ;P

Siying: sorry for miaing & the unreplied emails.. i'm fine.. thanks for your sweet sms :) back now! we can continue our daily emails marathon! & dun be shy to tag me k... u uh... hugz!

Ant: when my hp beeps in the afternoon, i noe its u & the msg will read, "oi, come online leh" busy lah, my father doesnt own the company k (unlike some people) :P ok, will come online more often & we can talk about your christmas dinner! CHOCO / RUM CHESTNUT CAKE!!

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Lurrrvve this week... why??
coz zack is working office hours!
going to work together (though i'll be half hr early but i dun mind!)
picking me up after work, going for dinner then heading for home..
just for 5 days..
but its awright..
simple joys in life... :)

I WANNA PLAY TENNIS! Anyone game??!! need to buy tennis racket.. this mth cant coz i'll be totally broke... haiiiizzz..... i cant swim (navel ring), raining these days so cant realy run... then how?? how to lose 2 blardeeeee kg!! not greedy, just 2 then i'll be a happy woman!

from a convert: I love my sony ericsson! dunno why, just haf to say it

MY D&D RAWKS BIG TIME!!! TEMPTATION ISLAND! ignite your senses*

gosh! had a smashing time! everything was great, place was great, food was good.. weather was lovely.. entertainment wicked! though some hiccups along the way, but all turned out well... *big smile*
everyone enjoyed themselves, had some positive comments.. only thing they were bitching about was that there was only 1 lucky draw! hahaha!

boogie night was awesome too... heard that this was one of the few boogie nights (from past d&ds) that the dance floor was packed..
busy running ard the entire night but managed to spare some time to shake my booty on the dance floor.. hehehe! only bummer was that there wasnt any disco lights (how can i leave that out! *slaps forehead*) but music was greeeaaaat.. at least the DJ wasnt playing 70s music (last year d&d!) he played mainly top 40s which was good.. got pretty hot and steamy prob coz of the theme & everyone was feeling liberated.. with all those skin showing & wine flowing in the blood.. hahaha! (but i've been a good gal k, always have been :P)

all in all, it was really good.. glad its all over *phew* left at about 10.45pm & the DJ just gotta play The Reason and This Love just when i'm leaving.. urgh!

pumped up with adrenalin *jumps! big smile*

Reached home at 11.30pm (managed to hitch a hike from my colleague) and zack picked me up and we had supper at The Roti Prata House!! Yummy! Our last 'outing' on his scrambler *sobs*

lights out: 5.30am

Imagine waking up at 10.30am on a Sat morning *groans* went to dirt wheel for his bike ownership transfer then to Lee Motor to collect his Phantom.. spent close to 2 hours at the workshop getting the number plate fixed *snores*
managed to catch an hr of sleep when we got home before we went off to meet Andy & Huiqing at TM for dinner..
was running on reserve energy the entire day..
and by the time we finished our dinner, i was already zombified..
played pool and couldnt managed to work out any energy to play more than 1 game..
using up the last bit of reserve energy..
was so tired that i dozed off on the ride home..
gosh! did that twice in 2 days.. dangerous dangerous..
totally washed out when we got home..
fell face flat on the bed the minute i got home & i mean the MINUTE..

Slept for a total of 13.5 hours! ahhhhh.....
got woken up by that stupid Ant *grrrr* could have slept longer!
but that 13.5 hours of sleep did wonders..
replenished all the lost sleep and fatigue from the last week..
jumped right outta bed!
ju with loadsa sleep is a happy gal! :)

wanted to go changi nasi lemak but was downpouring the entire afternoon..
so spent our afternoon doing household chores..
oh! correction.. me doing household chores while someone lay right smack infront of the TV! *poor me.. sobs*

wanna see zack's new toy?! watch this space! :P

pics pics!

D&D is tomorrow! i'm going crazy... emails after another.. spending most of my time righting things out.. going through it over and over, right down to the minute details.. i'm losing it!!

YOU CANT SCREW THIS UP JU! you just cant...

gotta high inner locus of control.. wats yours?

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someone is coming back tomorrow! and that someone is going to get it good and proper from me! *humph*

know what i wish to do? pack my bag and head for narnia...

Zack had an accident.. a minor accident but an accident is an accident! got 6 stitches on his right pinkie.. right hand is full of abrasions and is a little swollen and 2 deep lacerations into his pinkie.. was torn between weeping & yelling at him when i saw him at the hospital.. sigh.. scared the living daylights outta me when i received his call.. .. my worst fear had come through.. not even 6 mths into his license... when are you going to stop riding dear? deep sigh...

somehow, the people u love most makes u worry the most.. guess it goes hand in hand with loving so much...

anyone know how to boil fish soup?? please advise! Stuffing zack with fish now.. NO MUTTON CHOP! heheee.... and dun u go eating behind my back! :P

went to punggol plaza fresh market to buy some groceries.. impressed with what they have there.. there's even a store selling fishes, i mean live pet fishes! how apt uh *wink* & a store that has those biscuits in tins & u buy them by grams.. oh, how i dig those! :P things there are much cheaper than supermarts.. but gotta be careful not to get fleece.. which i did! then again, maybe not... o well, gotta learn to be a smarter market shopper.. urgh, arms aching now.. bought almost 70 bucks worth of groceries & toiletries.. woes of living on yr own.. but i lurvvveee it.. the independence... :)

sleeepy... *yawns*

slacking the day away..
something's not right but i dunno wat..
getting edgy..
getting sick..
sick of being nice..
giving, giving and giving..
sometimes at my expense..

i'm getting tired..
coz i'm just so sick right now..

fear? of rejection?
that i'm not enough, if i'm me?
i dunno.. i really dunno..
perhaps i do.. perhaps..

fearful of grabbing wats mine..
my needs have been blurred..
perhaps i'm just not enough..
just not enough..

so wats wrong?
pray tell..
heighten my senses..
so i may speak..

so please.. keep out

"i just want you to know who i am.."

i got a nice pretty present today... a candle holder with pretty twinkling crystals surounding it.. it's so pretty... cant wait to light it up *smile* thanks darling.. *hugz* :)

went for dinner at Jack's place with Zack's family... celebrated Irene's (Zack's future sis-in-law) bday.. nice... been awhile since i sat in a family gathering.. that warm fuzzy feeling came back watching the engagement.. missed it..

oh! zack gotta new bike! its a Phantom this time.. a cruiser.. my knowledge of bikes just grew a couple of notches.. hehehe.. number plate is FV2398C... ok, anyone buy 4D can split the earnings with me *wink* though his scrambler gave tons of probs, guess i will still miss it..

right, better get my ass off to bed now *yawns* night peeps...

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!

Shutter

watched 'Shutter' late night... boy, was it good! really the scariest horror flick i've seen by far! Horror scene after another.. no break at all... the plot was good, lead actor was a hunk and a half! looks like pierre png.. realised Thai people has really nice eyes..

really kept me at the edge of my seat the entire time and my face against zack's chest... freaking horrid scenes and the ending was goooood... stuck in my head long after we depart from the cinema.. eeerrrriiiieeeee.....

Shutter - High Recommended (5 stars*)

off to TM soon! ;) ahhh.... smelling the aroma of the taiwanese sausages zack is heating in the toaster... makan time, zack's calling!

*yawns* knocking off soon... tired... busy day... then again, which day isnt?

Dinner and Dance in a weeks' time... cant wait! but so many details to look into...
pressure is building up but adrenalin is pumping..
been spending most afternoons having meetings..
but its good.. everyone is getting pumped up with excitement..

last year, was worrying over wat to wear..
this year, worrying over the lights, reception, transport etc..
really exciting planning this..
wish i'm doing it full time *ponders*

going home! meeting my boy! :)

Severe Withdrawal Symptons

into my 2nd day of fruit fast.. detoxify my system!!! but i'm, i'm...... ahhhhh!!!! having severe withdrawal symptons!!!

things that are always on my mind (other than my zack k)
- marche ham & cheese crepe (had that on tue *drools*)
- fried mantou and char siew
- thomson roti prata
- fried beehoon with prawn paste chicken (zack bought from me from peninsula *awesome*)
- char siew pau (my longest ever craving)

serene pulled out from the fruit fast last night.. she couldnt take it and had dinner... lol!

guess wat?? SOMEONE IN MY OFFICE BOUGHT ROTI BOY!!! *grrrrrrrrr* the aromatic scent is driving my crazy....

i wanna eat FOOD.....

back to work tomorrow.. sigh.. 4 more days to the weekend.. counting down..

Had pixie for the weekend..simon brought her over on fri.. miss her sweet sweet face :) but this gal drives me up the wall! was wearing out the towel cleaning her pee & she pees soooooo much! then i see her face, my heart melts... and i feel bad about scolding her so profusely.. that gal got my number.. that gal..

Fri
we just bummed the night away.. pizza and vcds! yum yum! watched 'That Thing You Do'... but only managed to end the first disc..

Sat
BOUGHT MY K700i!! woooohoooooo......! at $500! for the handset alone.. cheap ya ;) love my new hp! my current bedtime book is the manuel book *grin*

Zack & i then met up with Andy & Huiqing for steamboat at Marina South. Gosh, i love their fried mantou & char siew! love to go there again sometime soon.. cant believe that was the first time i had steamboat at marina south.. where have i been all these while?!?!

went bowling then supper at lau par sat.. was already close to 3am by the time we reached home.. was a nice night.. finished the second disc of 'That Thing You Do' but i drifted off when we werent even half way thru :P

Sun
watched 'SAW' last night at J8.. storyline aint that fantastic.. it was more gory than intriguing.. but theres a twist at the end.. however, the twist wasnt the kind that makes u go, 'oh yeah! why didnt i see that!'

day was ok.. good things happened, not so good things happened.. didnt know wat to do, was like walking on a minefield.. nothing i did seemed right.. emotions all jumbled up inside.. but i guess things got righted up.. it doesnt change anything, no it doesnt.. hopefully..

tot all i need to do is right one aspect of my life then everything will be good.. or will it? sometimes, i wonder if i screwed up somewhere.. somehow.. sometimes, i'm really at a lost..


feeling weepy.. emotional..
tired...

Happy Deepavali!

Hols! been looking forward to this break for a long time..
shld have taken leave tomorrow.. damn!
then again, cant coz its payroll period & banklist gotta go out tomorrow..
otherwise, no pay on the 21st (20th this mth)
responsibilities, responsibilities & more responsibilities..

spent the day with zack :)
bum ard the whole day..
went to punggol plaza for some grocery shopping..
dinner was nice.. home cooked meal!
we had bak kut teh (chicken), steamed sea bass (yum yum) & zack's fav lady's fingers
healthy healthy!
holding hands in prayer.. chats over dinner.. *soft sigh*

there's something heartwarming watching the one u love enjoy the food u prepared :)

Embattled US insurer Marsh and McLellan axes 3,000 jobs

Office was quiet this morning.. news that Marsh Mac would be axing 3000 staff came through...
then the good news came...
Singapore Office wouldnt be affected! :)

No one expected Marsh Inc. to be involved in a lawsuit (civil, not criminal, mind u).. shares plunged by half.. feel for those who just purchased a lotful...

but we'll pull through.. *pray*

its the time of the month again... payroll..
starting early this month coz of the holidays..
worked through lunch today..
hoping to get everything done up so dun have to work late..
why? coz my boy is booking out today! *smile*

D&D is round the corner.. 2.5 more weeks..
feeling the strain and pressure..
cos the overall in charge is yours truly.. sigh..
but was great fun working on it..
the decision making.. coordination..
seeing my mark on every little details..
was working with the event management staff..
went through the detailed flow of the night.. the deco..
working with fire torches, netting, flowers, helium balloons..
can envision watta spectacular night it will be..
hope can pull off a great one! :)

TEMPTATION ISLAND! ignite your senses..
nice tagline uh *wink*

damn! i found a scratch on my sovil et titus watch! urgh..... bday pressie from my boy :(

Comic Relief

this is really wacko.. comic relief! poem by siying
almost burst my gut laughing!

Leon is a China kid,
Met Jane on the Taipei street,
Boy offered a special treat,
Girl on diet, refused to eat,
Leon insisted, he won't quit
So Jane took salad while he ate meat.
Litttle black dress she must fit,
"...Can't be bothered with this chick!"
Leon mumbled as he feasted on steak
One tight slap flew across his cheek!
My! His face swelled like a pig's!
Blame it on his unsweet lips......

Writing poem just for kick
Think my brain is falling sick...
Trade report is incomplete,
Tonite i've to forgo sleep.
Deadline is the mid of week,
Spirit is willing, flesh is weak........ =(
*sigh*..............

The above is inspired by Ju's remarkable answer to my qn on Leon Lai's
nationality, ....Jane's bdae,......the feast we had on Sat,.....the diet
plans in mind,.....and last but DEFINITELY not least....the nagging feeling
that my work is still not finished.....=(

jeez, i really needed this..
nursing a headache..
when will this end?

AWESOME WEEKEND!

Never had a better weekend! Full deets!

1) ZACK BOOK OUT!
2) Had sooooo much fun @ our all-gals first slumber party/Housewarming/Jane's bday party! *big grin*

Met Zack at Funan @ 12.30pm for lunch! Only for an hour but it was great! Had BK for lunch.. my poor boy was so deprived of good food. When 1.40pm approaches, was so hard to part... ahhh.... but the good news was, he might be able to book out for the weekend!! was in anticiapation for the whole day until 5.11pm.. the sms came! He's booking out! we get to spend our anniversary together *beams*

Then it was shopping with Siying! Bought a loadful of things.. had a grocery shopping frenzy at cold storage taka, preparing for a fiesta! Jo was so sweet, came to pick us so we dun have to lug our stuff ard..

9.30pm: THE PARTY BEGINS!
Our Feast!
- pate & wine (though jane prefers peanut butter)
- salad
- sausages / chesse cocktails
- cup noodles (-_- been decided thats wat we will having for our next sleepover!)
- chips (forgot the nachos!)
- brownies with ice cream! (3 flavours of ice cream... awww...) - Jane's bday cake

Watched this Leslie Cheung show.. really screwed up show but our dear siying lurvess leslie cheung so we gotta endure 2 hours of watching how crappy twisted relationships develop, people with serious identity crisis, who dunno whether they are straight or not.. siying siying, the things we do for u :P

Zack came over at 12.30am :) Muah! poor boy was so tired.. tucked him to bed.. *hugs*

Then its HORROR FLICK Time! Rented 3 horror but we only managed to watch one.. Only Jo, Siying and i watched 'The Ghost'.. Yingyan and Jane (cowards! :P) went off to bed! Off all the lights & turn on game! Gosh, i think we scare ourselves more than the show did.. This korean horror click wasnt that scary but the dark room, 3 of us huddling together under the quilt adds to the excitement & of crse, not forgetting our screams (siying is the champ!) Her screams were definitely more scary!

4:00am: Off to bed!

7 November - Happy 4 Mths Darling!

8.30am: Rise and Shine!
Jane and Yingyan gotta go church so everyone woke up at 8.30am.. or rather i woke up at 8.30am & wake everyone up.. hehehe..

Hardest person to wake: JO!

More yakking over breakfast.. When 5 of us are together, there's just no peace & quiet :P

Hey dears, had a wonderful time with u guys.. it was really great fun and appreciate the bonding session.. we gotta do it again soon! in dec? when i plan my bbq.. cant wait! Love u guys loads! hugzzz....

Spent the rest of the day with zack :) 4 lovely mths.. didnt expect to be spending the day together coz zack was supposed to be in camp.. but heaven intervene! Time flies.. 4 mths.. step by step.. gonna be a long walk? hopefully... :)

LOVE? its beauty is that it be a gift... with no strings attached..

Highlight of Sat!

Guess wat?!

I'M MEETING ZACK TOMORROW! *big smile* for only an hour... *bummer* but its alright! anything is better than nothing :)

Roses need rain?
Poets need pain?
(oh.. it's supposed to rhyme uh! :P)

and ju needs zack...
miss u loads baby...

Its friday! its here at long last... a week has gone by.. albeit slowly
been a quiet week... home most of the nights..
was nice, spending time with my pappe :)

Aching all over, legs from my running.. arms from my swimming..
but feels healthy and happy! loadsa endorphins ;)
went swimming last night with siying & only managed to do 7 laps *bummer* instead of our targetted 10.. was 9pm & pool was about to close.. but it was good all the same! :P
love the smooth movement of slicing through the cool, smooth water.. the stretch of the muscles.. the quiet of underwater.. ahhhh...

my days all planned out...

TODAY!
Steamboat dinner with Rachel & Godma! been awhile since we meet up for dinner.. so looking forward to it.. the catching up :) Question now is 'where to have steamboat?'

SAT is de DAY!! GALS DAY OUT! Woohoooo......!
Retail therapy during the day with Siying and Jane.. gotta list of things to get..
- Dumbells (work those tri/biceps baby!)
- Googles
- Shoes from Heatwave (optional.. a lil broke now)
- Materials from spotlight (room deco!)
- Malliot (if i can find a nice one)

Places to check out:
- Forever 21 (never have the chance to really browse)
- Heeren (changing my navel ring!)
- Spotlight

We really gotta plan our shopping route coz Siying has a list too.. LOL!

Then its hanging out at ma little humble home... :)
Whole night of pigging out, vcds, bitching & more bitching..

Proposed: Sunday morning swim (jo, u better come uh! :P) , followed by Mac breakfast.. then it'll be back home for our beauty zzzzz... sounds good uh!

ps: hey gals, bring your running shoes if u wanna go running ya.. can do a few rounds after our pigging out :P

Sun - Pappe & Pixie day! Yes, Pixie is coming over! *beams*
Monday - Swimming with Rachel
Tue - Dinner with Vincent

Wed (10 Nov) - MY BOY COMES HOME! :)


..... but right now.. i just wanna sleep... *yawns*

just blowed another 28 bucks on medical fees.. sigh..
one little oyster costed me almost 60 bucks! had to see the doc again coz pain was still getting to me, all the wind & bloatedness.. cant even walk properly... hope it clears up soon.. btw, my dear ant, doc said NO MORE CHARCOAL PILLS! thats the cause of the bloatedness & constipation! so i'm not downing 8 charcoal pills at one go! *needs lactabacillus*

couldnt realy sleep last night..
we watched this old skool hongkong ghostbuster show on channel 8 last night.. it was so so lame & jokes were so so corny... boy, i just luuurvve zack's mandarin *wink* lol.. cant believe we finished the entire show.. ended at 2am.. tot it was a waste of time to sleep... but we all need our rest ya.. kept waking up during the night.. woke up at 6am.. alarm wasnt set to ring for another 30 mins..

only hit me hard this morning..
felt this pang when he left at 6.50am..
with his big black bag..
sigh.. hope time flies.. counting down..
jeez, this is bad.. getting too used
watch it ju.. watch it..

i lost my hp. i lost my hp. i lost my hp.
its sinking in. its sinking in. its sinking in.
still dun feel much..
why? prob coz wasnt that psyched over the hp to begin with..
events surrounding its purchase.. it costed me dearly.. that hp..

becoming friends? that would be nice..
never meant to hurt anyone..
sorry if i did.. really am..

do u know there's lard in pohpiahs?!?

at zack's now... he's packing his bag for his course... he'll be going on course for 5 weeks & wudnt be able to book out for the next 10 days... in other words... cant meet him for the next 10 days... boohooo... :`(

going to miss u soooo much dear..... please take care.. *hugz*

Fri the 29 Oct 2004 - Mother of bad nights...

Went to Juice 6th Anniversary Bash at Zouk with Zack. Zack got 2 free invites so made our way there. Didnt stay in zouk long before we moved to Phuture... which was better as they were playing R&B.. awright baby! ;) But that place was packed & we were all packed like sardines! Theres hardly any room to move, much less dance! *shakes head* big bummer.. Zouk was playing house & it was definitely more entertaining watching ppl dance than shaking our boggies on the dancefloor :P

Downed one jug of vodka & a hot & sticky.. & it killed me! Broke the record, never been sooo 'high' in my life (not drunk k :P)! The hot & sticky did me in.. it was a deceptively innocent looking drink. An orangy red drink with a taste of fruit punch... taste a little like an orange drink.. think theres a slice of lemon.. jeez, cant remember cos was already high from the vodka... gosh, but 1 glass is enough to kill me... never puked from excessive drinking before but this night, i puked! *groans* which makes it twice in 2 days! Have not puked in years & i gotta puked twice 2 days in a row..

then again, serves me right for drinking so much.. with my weak stomach and all... have no business at all downing vodka and wat not... bad bad ju!

But no, the worst is yet to be... I LOST MY HP!!! *sobs* things just have a knack for getting worse... shakes head.. even now, the fact that i lost my hp is still sinking in.. i've not gotten the full impact of it.. all i noe is... dollars flying away *sobs*

Stomach is still bad... gosh, never had such bad food posioning... pain never seem to go away & its bloated :(

really a bad week for me...
1. Monitor broke down
2. Food poisoning
3. Lost my hp

in short: my monitor, me & my wallet broke down...

WATS WRONG WITH ME?!?!!!

what's next?

one small little oyster...

..... caused to me have:

- Diarrhoea
- Vomitting
- Fever
- Bodyaches
- Stomachaches
- and A JAB ON MY BUTT!!!

going home now... feeling terrible... :(

Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all the time

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand

Simple Plan - Perfect

this song has been playing in my head for awhile.. sad, and i suppose many people are able to relate to the gist of it..

bad stomach..

*tired & lousy* please stay away...

Banana Walnut Cake!

having my breakfast now.. Banana Walnut Cake! awesome, coz baked by zack! *beams* the first guy who ever baked a cake just for me... :`)

pics up soon! (when my comp is up & running...)

rushed home after work yesterday coz zack was home baking & cooking dinner.. for once, was so looking forward to going home :) Dinner comprises prawns with mussels & cuttlefish balls in chilli gravy & curry maggi noodles! Yummy... Then we had the freshly-baked-from-the-oven banana walnut cake! oh so nice~ The first meal my boy cooked for me... thanks sweetheart *hugz* :)

Went for a run after the hearty meal.. the opening ceremony of my new nike shoes :P & the first time we exercised together! never did like jogging much but somehow, its different jogging with my dearie :) & it beats running on threadmill hands down! brought pappe down & she had loadsa fun.. been awhile since i brought her out for a run *guilty*.. was dead beat but the run did me good... let's make it our weekly affair k dear? totally conked out the minute my head touched my pillow...

zack's on night shift these 2 nights.. realised this will be the first time i'm home alone at night.. solitude solitude... godma wudnt be home this week so we got the whole place to ourselves! hmm... then again, we always do! wat am i talking about! hahaha! Fun playing house... doing laundry tonight.. feels like a run tonight..

Devastation...

i've got the most devastating news... MY MONITOR DIED ON ME! *sobs* NOO!!! this cant be happening to me.... it must be the move up.. my trusty pc had moved with me from Ang Mo Kio to Hougang, then to Punggol... now another move up 4 storeys... & it didnt survive this time.. this last time...

Had a foreboding on sun when my monitor had some discoloration at the top left corner.. knew not all is ok.. but didnt expect it to die on me so quickly... prob might lie on the graphic card.. watever it is, i know i need to make a trip to Sim Lim *dollars flying away* never have to worry about my pc til now.. SOMEBODY HELP ME!

emotional lately.. tired.. stressed.. need sleep.. surviving on 3 hours of sleep.. little things seem to get to me easily...

I'm having a surprise gift!!

hmm... wat can it be? *ponders*

watever it is, i love it lots! Muah! :)

monday again.. & a cool rainy monday at that! perfect weather to be snuggling in bed... (which is wat someone is doing... *envious*) *yawns*... woke up in my old bed, in my new room, in my new house :) Woke up earlier to make sure pappe has her breakfast & everything is well taken care of before i leave for work.. i even had time for my granola breakfast! which is a first for me. Living on my own, comes new responsibilities.. :)

Been a busy weekend. Sat was packed.. Spent a bomb that day on:-

- Nike shoes / socks
- Gym Bag
- Pants from Forever21
- Ikea (Jars, bowls etc & Ant's pressie)
- Facial

was close to 8.30pm by the time i got back & totally washed out... moved some stuff up (gosh, my stuff seems to be endless..)

Sun was heavy labour day *groans* moved my pc & stereo up.. those are frigging heavy!! spent the entire day shifting my stuff ard so i can accomodate everything in my puny little room.. voila! managed to pack all in! Gosh, i got everything in my room & i mean everything!

1. queensize bed
2. bedside table
3. TV
4. fan (my zack is really happy with this new addition :P)
5. pc
6. stereo
7. small cabinet
8. wardrobe
9. wall cabinet

pics up soon!

Those of you who have seen my room would know this is no mean feat.. damn am i good! *wink*
Though i'm a little skeptical about the tv.. never like having a tv in my room.. TVs belong in living rooms, bedrooms are for sleeping, making love (*gasp*where did that come from! lol), relaxing.. prob its coz i hardly ever watch tv.. Realised that nowadays, most families has a tv in every (bed)room and everyone holes up in their room when they reached home (no more of enjoying tv programmes together) coz theres everything in their bedroom. And the definition of a bedroom is blurred into that of a living room.. *ponders* maybe i wud grow into it.. ask me again in a few mths ;P

Then it was more mopping & cleaning.. enjoys seeing my nest nice & clean :) Grab some stuff at hougang mall & went to zack's.. He's selling his decks :( watched him spin for the last time... didnt know spinning was so interesting, learned how are the scenes like behind clubbing music.. interesting! pity i couldnt get to see my boy spin at a gig.. sad that he has to give up his hobby.. but if this is wat u have decided, i will support u dear *hugz*

ahhh... body is aching, think i strained my back (getting old) dunno why i've been so tired lately.. lack of sleep? zack seems to have more energy than i do though he has been working for 13 hours the past 2 days.. didnt realy get to spend much quality time with my boy :(

*tired*

7.30am on a sat morning & i am at work... watta life! oh well, a gal gotta do wat a gal gotta do ya! zack starts work at 8am so we came to work together :) Really really tired.. only had like 2-3 hours of sleep last night.. coz... I'VE FINALLY MOVED!! *big smile* spent the entire night moving the last bit of stuff up... dismantle & assemble my bedframe.. then hurling that big, heavy mattress of mine.. everything's up save for my pc & stereo.. moving those up tonight.. Big thanks & a mega hug for my boy!

Going to ikea later in the afternoon to check out some stuff for my new room :) whole world of possibilities.. inspiration.. going to be a busy day... facial at 11.30am later.. going to queensway with ant, then to his kitchen culture shop (to look at knives! *rolls eyes*), then to ikea... cant wait to go back home to tidy up my room, our little nest.. :)

ok, gotta get my ass back to work.. i wanna sleep... *yawns*

My precious moments...

Yes! I'm back! with a detailed report of my trip! *wink* storing up all these precious moments... :)

15 Oct (Friday) - Genting
7.00am: Board the coach at Beach road *yawns* was an onerous 6 hours ride up to Genting.
1.30pm: Reached Genting... Checkin @ Resort Hotel!

We went to the mall at first world, did some window shopping, lunch at pizza hut.. gosh, just love Hot Chocolate.. in the cool genting weather *heavenly*
My first time at a casino... ok, playing at a casino. Changed 25 bucks worth of coins, spent them all at jackpot & roulette... geez, my cup grew from 1 to 2! then i lost them all! *bummer* but its ok, all in the name of fun.. :P


check this out! havent seen one of these in ages... anyone know wats it called? musical horses? was really a magical sight when all the horses were filled with kids, laughing, waving at their parents.. wish i had gone on one when i was young.. :)

so after donating part of our money to the genting casino fund, we decide that the air outside is more enticing... the air was fresh & biting! my poor boy didnt have his jacket with him & for the first time, my strong guy was chilly! *hugz* managed to get some pretty decent nightshots.. the hotels behind us are Highlands Hotel & Genting Hotel... gosh, love the weather there...


We then had a lovely warm cup of Chocolate toffee (for me) / Caramel (for my boy) at Coffee Beans (Resort Hotel) in the crisp cool weather.. realy appreciate the time spent sharing a cup of hot chocolate with my dear, time spent sharing with each other... :)

16 Oct (Sat) - Genting / KL
8.00am : Rise & Shine!
9.00am : Breakfast @ Resort Hotel (food sucks... *grimace*)
10.45am: Checkout... goodbye room 18133...
Zack's early morning blur look.. *muah* love u tons!

Took a cable-car ride to the bus terminal... Gosh, look at all that mist.. awesome!
us in our first cable car ride!

2.00pm : KL!!! Checkin @ Swiss Garden Hotel :)
4.00pm : Nandos! Zack was gaga over it. Been hearing about it over & over.. hehehe.. Flame grilled chicken marinated in their special portugese sauce, with their flaming hot peri peri sauce *hungry*

Went to Times Square (equivalent to our Paragon, complete with 'posh' boutiques) nothing realy exciting though there were like an estimate of 8 shopping levels! we didnt comb all though... Then went to Sungei Wang for more shopping! A place more to my liking *wink*

7.00pm : Back to Hotel
9.00pm : Had dinner at this hawker stall @ Chinatown.. another of Zack's favourite haunt


10.30pm : Head down to Zouk KL. Gosh, please do not patronise! It sux big time! They were playing House.. & at 11pm, the crowd slowly build up.. note: operative word here is SLOWLY... The crowd at the dancefloor build up at a snail pace.. by 12.30 midnight, it wasnt even a quarter full! The crowd wasnt even worth mentioning.. china men who spits in the middle of a conversation.. pudgy middle-aged men with a suprisingly young companion.. & the couple who sat right infront of us looks like they were chaperoning their daughter.. *shakes head* Disappointing...

12.30am : We call it the night...

17 Oct (Sun) - KL
Went to Mid Valley Point. That place was huge! Cant see one end from another... the shopping was good! Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Esprit, Urban&Co., U2, Carrefour etc.. This is de place man! Gotta big petshop, didnt manage to get any good stuff for my little gal :(
check out this lab pup.. doesnt it makes yr heart melt... awww...

4.30pm : Went to Sungei Wang.. yes, again.. back to buy this realy nice navel ring :P
6.00pm : Back to Hotel. Zack went for his balinese massage... someone sure know how to enjoy life uh.. *wink* heehee... leaving me all alone in the hotel room *pout* :P

8.00pm : Had Nandos for dinner! Somehow, it taste nicer the second round... Then it was off to Chinatown! Was akin to the Ladies Market in Hong Kong. Managed to buy this nike sling bag at RM25! which was a steal.. imagine, the starting price was RM65! dwindled down to RM25.

Nandos! Zack's absolute fav!

11.00 pm : Back to Hotel!

18 Oct (Mon) - Home Sweet Home...

10.00am : Adieu~ our little nest 1406...

Our last stop... KLCC! pity we only combed a small area of it but we managed to grab some stuff *happy* Oh! i had my cinnamon roll! gosh, miss it soooo much... wat happened to all the cinnamon outlets in s'pore?! *sob* perhaps i shld try my hand at cinnamon roll.. u want something done, u gotta do it yrself!

Had been a wonderful holiday :) Spending these few days with my boy.. it means so much to me... *hugz*

Off to Genting & KL!

i'm leaving in.... 15 mins! off to Genting & KL! first time i'm looking forward to the sound of my alarm... woke up at 5am & jumped right outta bed... though i only slept for 1.5 hrs!

all done & ready.. just waiting for someone to be ready.. aiyo, take so long... heehee... *muah!* our 2nd holiday!

ok, gotta go now! dun miss me peeps! :P

12 more hours and i'll be on my way to Genting! :) but right now, i'm working my ass off in the office.. sigh.. 12 more hours & i gotta million things to do...

- have not pack my bag *gasps*
- move my stuff up to my new room (this is going to take realy long)
- bring pappe to simon's
- wake up at 5 tomorrow morning

its 7pm and i'm still at work..

been a crazy day at work, been working non-stop since i stepped in at 8.30 this morning.. couldnt fully enjoy the anticipation of my trip coz was totally bogged down with work, all that stress.. been really tired of late.. didnt fully comprehend the extent of my exhaustion until i find myself nodding off infront of my pc at 9pm & in the middle of msn conversations (for 2 nights in a row!) was like wide awake one minute & totally knocked out the next.. geez, wat am i doing..

Life's becoming a struggle.. time to start re-evaluating my priorities..

*headache brewing*

*smile*

something sweet happened to me this morning...

special breakfast delivery from my boy.. just love the taste of salmon croissant.. this one is different though... has loadsa of a special ingredient called 'L' :)

so blessed... cant ask Him for more... *soft sigh*

thanks dear for being so wonderful... u're all that i need & all that i want.. bringing that smile on my face..

lousy day at work.. pressure building up.. sigh...

only thing that keeps me going is knowing that i'm meeting my zack later...

Lord, please give me strength... how could i forget that You are always here for me..

i love you, i need you..
though my world may fall, i'd never let u go...

A Loadful of Goodies!

SOOOO many good things to write... *big smile*

I AM GOING TO GENTING / KL!!!!

our 2nd holiday :) leaving this friday and back the following monday... want anything? msg me by thursday k coz i'm not on autoroaming.. counting down.. 4 more days... *dreams*

Friday was good.. met up siying and jane after work.. siying got her hair cut (finaly! :P) went for dinner at this newly opened jap eatery at cineleisure. Had the beef ramen & it was good. Topic of my house warming came up.. arranging one after i move up.. house/room warming again after a year.. haha.. Time for a slumber party! Night of vcds, facials, nails painting, bitching, brownies & ice-cream (think this will be the killer!) oh! and i've gotta bottle of dessert wine which is good! lets get tipsy ladies! ;P

Zack picked me at Cineleisure at 9.30pm after his work... poor boy was so tired *hugs*

Lights out: 3.00am


Saturday
3.00 pm: Went to beach road to book our trip! Going to be spending friday in Genting, then leaving for KL at noon on Sat.. then back to home on mon.. 4 days 3 nights! *smile* We then have the manifique beach road Ah Balling! Those peanut tang yuan that just oozes out peanut filling when u bite into it.. awesome!

5.00om: Went to church! Zack's first time at Trinity, glad u enjoyed the service dear :) Good to be back after miaing for awhile... miss it sooo much...

7.00pm: Went to Adams road hawker for dinner.. Zack had tulang.. i can only watch him eat.. sob sob... Going to try the nasi lemak the next time round.. looks pretty good & the queue was long so it gotta be good somewhat..

8.00pm: Upper Pierce Reservoir. Nice place though not much wind that night and only 3 stars in the sky.. *missed Krabi* was realy nice just sitting, chatting with my dear :)

12.15am: Caught The Exorcist at J8... scary scary...

3.00am: Home Sweet Home. Shouldnt have watched that flick at midnight.. Didnt even dare to take my bath coz someone conveniantly reminded me of the movie just when i'm bouncing off to the bathroom "be careful when u bath k.." *glares*

Lights out: 5.30am

Sunday - Bumming Day
Pigs! Woke up at 3pm! This is da life man.. heehee... Went to Jalan Kayu for prata! Went to the stall which sells the biggest mug of ice-dinosaur! all that milo powder.... awww.. the plain prata was ok but the cheese ones were a little too much.. gets to u after awhile or probably its coz of the salty curry... still miss the Thomson prata *dreams* its the best! Stopped over Dogtionary to buy some bones for pappe.. Got to know of a dog event at Expo on the 24 Oct (Mark that date!) Zack managed to find out that entrance fee is 7 bucks. When will the day come when i can get a sheltie... or another papillon...

We cooked dinner together (the first time) hmm.. not realy together coz someone was sleeping while i was boiling the soup & frying my chicken/tofu :P but my boy can cook man! He cooked prawns with mussels, crabsticks with hot spicy belacan chilli sauce.. & his favourite lady's fingers with belacan chilli... with style & substance! there's something realy sexy about guys with sleep rumpled hair, at the stove, whipping out fragrant spicy food outta the wok.. *wink*


1) Prawns/Mussels/Crabsticks dish looks good uh! note: make more gravy in future. HOT HOT!
2) Chicken/Egg Tofu in soy bean paste: Tofu not brown enuf. Note: Fire shld be hotter before i throw in the tofu.
3) Zack's Lady's Fingers in Belacan Chilli! Didnt try it but it smells good....
4) ABC soup! Loadful of nutrients and vitamins! Corn/Carrots/Cubbage/Onions/Tomatoes/Chicken... no salt or sugar added! all natural sweetness! ;P

TADA! zack&ju's homecooked meal!

Watched Dirty Dancing while enjoying our dinner together :) Reminds me of a certain time at a certain place hahaha! Let's take up latin dancing dear! feels like hitting Union Square soon, practice some of my salsa moves.. :P

theres something even sexier about guys at the sink, with a sponge in one hand, washing up after a good meal.. heehee *wink wink* Muah! :P

Then its exercise time! spent a good 2 over hours hurling some of my stuff up to my new room... *thank u so much for helping me dear, wudnt noe how i wud've done it without u.. Muah!* Hope to get all up by Thur so when i come back from our holiday, i will be 'booking' into my new room! My new life...

Lights out: 2.00am

The best time of my life... Thank you Jesus.. :)

ez ze big W again!

Weekend is here 30 mins to freedom.. out of this freezer! Do hope i can catch up on my beauty sleep this weekend.. realy sleepy... eyes were almost crossed..

Going to church tomorrow :)

some things that didnt seem to matter, matters more now.. i wonder.. *ponders*

think i need chocolate to give me some happy hormones.. kit kat chunky! *hungry* Retail therapy later with the gals! cant wait! oh, cant.. coz gotta save more dough for my trip to Genting & KL!!!

its 6.50pm and i'm still in my office.. huge mess my table is but a productive day i must say.. think i'm getting too comfy in my office, i dun feel like leaving...

home? is where the heart lies...

think its time..

i'm tired...

Rusty has found a new home.. mixed feelings.. though he drives me up the wall sometimes but felt this pang when the guy brought him away.. Remembered that moment when zack handed Rusty's leash over to him.. symbolic.. Know it hurts dear, i noe.. sorry u have to go through this *hugz* Events surrounding this adoption.. pure coincidence or symbolic?

Sometimes, its just hard to let the old go
Sometimes, it never quite went away
Sometimes, i think too much

With Rusty's departure, comes my departure as well. Time to move to my new place. Somewhat a new beginning for me, entirely on my own now.. which is good.. time to grow up gal..

many thoughts running through my head.. need to regroup myself..

wonder what the future holds for me now.. *ponders*

tired...

upcoming weekend...

another week just flew by & the weekend approaches.. wat shall i do this weekend?

- go church
- pack my room
- wash toilet
- bathe pappe / send her for her jab & teeth scaling
- watch a flick?
- go town?
- watch dvds?
- buy my nike shoes?
- buy a squash racket? (need to go queensway for that, so far..*groans*)
- write email to ben (which is months overdue!)

Busy morning today (though i had a really gooood start ;P), received a number of news..

Ant: just got back from KL & his bdae bbq will be postponed.. His gran bought him tix to perth (lucky him!) & he's flying off 2mrw morning, back on the 13th, almost half a month break! *envious* better this way, i got more time to think about his bdae pressie..

Aaron: His dog passed away last sun... *pat pat* i can relate to your pain, i truly can.. i think i will cry for months when pappe passed on... i did when nicky passed away.. sigh... but i guess we all gotta grit our teeth & move on.. however painful it might be... Life sucks sometimes, but we'll show it to them ya! Nothing is going to get us down, not failures, sorrow, pain.. coz He is always in control.. Take care my dear friend..

when it get darker, thats when His light shines brighter..

Went bowling yesterday.. ok, i sucks at bowling! lol! hey, one cant be good @ everything right.. *opps* :P nope, i gotta work on my bowling! never say die! *wink*

I WANNA PLAY SQUASH!!! Anyone interested, tag me!
wonder where i got all these pent up energy from..

Mid-Autumn Festival

Mid-Autumn Festival - Full Moon...

Beautiful night.. the first time in so so many years i celebrated Mid-Autumn Festival :) Every year, i long to go to a park, walking around with a lantern burning bright.. watching the little kids play around with lanterns, candles.. but somehow it just never materialise... but it did this year... :)

Zack and i celebrated our first Mid-Autumn festival together at Punggol Park :) wat a sight greeted us upon arrival! It was packed with kids, families, young punks... all the lanterns hanging from trees, little kids running ard with 'singing' battery-operated lanterns.. candles burning along the sidewalk.. sparklers flying everywhere (even into the lake *eyes crossed* poor fishes..) the smoke (from the sparklers) even gave the place a surreal quality.. the entire place was lit up.. the lake in the middle of the park reflected the full moon & all the pretty little 'fairy lights'... like some magical place.. it was truly a beautiful sight.. soft sigh.. :)


Punggol Park @ Full Swing!


our lantern...


We tried to take some pics but the night shots sucks *digicam, wat can u expect* so we could only make do with wat we had.. walked ard the park, realised that lanterns & candles are not the only things that was burning.. hahaha.. good excuse to play with fire..

Went to the lake & lit up all our tealights... placed them in the lake & watched them float away :)

when we wish upon the stars.. our 2 special lights...


our feeble attempts to take a pic together, turned out pretty good ya ;)

all in all, it was an incredible night...

happy.. i really am :)

Oh! did i mention my boy passed his level 2!!!! *Big Hugz!* so proud of my boy! *beams*

The letter 'M'

maybe its the quarter life crisis... maybe i've reached that age.. or maybe its just events surrounding me that got me thinking.. the big M... Marriage...

the daunting word that makes some ppl shudder.. some ppl smile.. so how do i feel about it? i dunno. Kinda scary just thinking about it at times.. I dun believe in taking the easy way out (the big D) so marriage would mean a lifetime for me. But how do u know if this is the person you wanna spend the rest of your life with? the rest of your life.. thats like the next 50 years of my life (saying i live to a ripe age of 70+), living with this person, everyday.. for the next 50 years...

Seen marriages around me break down, marriage that doesnt seem like a marriage.. scares me to the bone sometimes.. Making a marriage work isnt as simple as taking the garbage out everyday. Marriage is not all about love, its about commitment, compromises, tolerance, patience.. a decision made and you jolly well stick by it. Cause wat happens when that hot, sizzling passion fizz out?

What happens if that marriage fails? then wat about the children? It just tears everything & everyone apart.. i used to think that in instances where a couple can just no longer live together, they shld just split & not hold on for reasons like children.. but now, i'm not sure..

Simon msged me, telling me he misses pappe loads... it tore me.. no, no leftover feelings... just sad that things have to be this way.. we agreed to an arrangement where every other weekend, the 2 gals, pappe & pixie will spend a day together with either of us. Gosh, this is so akin to parent visitations.. i suppose this is best for now, since i miss pixie & he misses pappe.. and they are dogs.. can u imagine if we are talking about children? children with feelings, emotions... it hit me hard.. sigh...

with growing up comes responsibilities, crossroads, life-changing decisions... dun wanna grow up...

Da Best Prata!

Saturday

Had Family Day in the morning (see earlier blog).. reached home at 2 plus.. My boy came over at 4 plus... just before it rained! Just love it when it rains in the afternoon (only when i'm indoors).. best time for snuggles.... under my thick quilt, aircon on, rain pitter pattering on the window ;)

We went to 'The Roti Prata House' for dinner at Thomson... oh man! this is da best prata i've eaten by far! Never tot i wud say this coz when zack was going on about how good the prata was, i was like 'ok, all prata tastes the same to me.. some are better but nothing fantastic'.. but when i had that first piece of prata, i was a goner. Ordered 1 cheese & 1 plain.. Zack ordered bomb prata (excellent!), 2 cheese & 2 plain.. the plain was awesome! prefer it on its own, then u can taste it without the curry masking the taste... its crispy on the outside & incredibly chewy on the inside.. the bomb was really good as well, the condense milk inside (am i right?) makes it all smooth and chewy... heavenly.. we had milo dinosaur & shared a bowl of mutton soup.. my first mutton soup! love the tender mutton pieces, but a little too peppery for me... my throat was almost burning after that.. gosh, wonderful dinner but feel real guilty after that.. all that oil and it was real heaty (i'm paying for it now.. but i dun mind! :P) when's our next thomson trip dear? :P

Reached home at 10 plus... my boy gotta mug for his papers & i conked out.. heehee... woke up at 12.30 & we watched dvds.. 'The School of Rock'... show was ok, didnt catch it when it was screening in the cinemas.. was just so nice watching it with my boy... though i drifted off for awhile (bet u didnt know dear :P)

*my Family Day was on the 9.30pm CNA news! i missed that.. bummer...

Was a long day prob coz had a very early start and late end but was all good, fully utilised.. spending it with my special someone.. :)

Lights out: 3.30am

Best of BLUE!

FRIDAY - 24 Sept

BLUE - LIVE IN CONCERT

Alright, here goes it.. i am not a Blue fan! so why am i so hyped up? coz its friday! day to let yr hair down and go crazy... & yeah, i went crazy.. hahaha! but the deal of it all was... ITS FREE!!! :P

Ant won 2 tix to Blue concert from Power 98 (maybe i shld start listening to radio) so i gotta sacrifice my friday and accompany this guy down to indoor stadium.. sigh.. do u realise watta good friend u've got ant?!



Ant's ugly creation...

Was great fun listening to Blue songs on our way to indoor stadium and stupid ant made a poster (can u beat that?!) for 'us' to wave it about! No way am i doing that, and an ugly poster at that! no creativity.. *shakes head*.. Reached Indoor stadium close to 8 and wasnt that big a crowd.



the crowd before the show starts... all that 'blue' lights are so cheesy, should have dimmed all the 'spectator' lights.. The guest performer was some guy called Derrick something.. was ok, sang a few songs (which sounded foreign to me).. belted out 'Nobody Knows - Tony Rich Project'.. sad sad song.. sigh... was only a rendition of the original, nothing fantastic..

Then BLUE came on!! told by Siying that there was only 1 cute guy in the band.. called Duncan James (Brad pitt lookalike??) cant tell coz we were too far from the stage... But i like Lee... boy can he sing! Oh! Duncan & Lee bared their ass! hahaha! nope, not bare ass, they were wearing boxers! heehee...

Went bersek when they sang 'You make me wanna' Ant & i were crazy over that song awhile back.. screamed our lungs when they sang that song! Finale was 'One Love'... called my boy when the song came on.. he was almost home by then.. :)

Concert ended at bout 10pm.. there were no encores *suckee* & nobody was screaming for encores *double suckee* Drove off with the stero blaring 'One Love'... and with a major sore throat.. which didnt help much coz my throat was already sore.. all in all, it was a great night! All in the good name of FUN!

read Ant's blog for more details.. though most of it aint true!

1) i did not ogle that at 'my duncan' i dun even think he's that cute..
2) i didnt 'nearly collapsed into the rows of seats in front of us, grabbing (me) quite uncomfortably by the collar and screaming some sort of primordial, animalistic mating call' when Lee and Duncan waved their ass... i just screamed :P

Nope, still am not a BLUE fan.. just missed being young and crazy without a care in the world.. screamed like its noboby's business, laughed like there's no tomorrow, do stupid & crazy things.. never did any of these when i was young, making up for lost time now.. hahaa...

Ant then drove me to Zack's.. picked Bris up at Hougang gym prior to that... Hang ard at zack's, then we rode back home at 1 plus.. Couldnt stay up too late coz had to wake up at 5.45am the next morning (Family Day).. but our 'early lights out' turned out to be 2.30am.. haha!

Family Day

just got back from Botanical Gardens. Its Marsh Family Day and was held at Botanical Gardens... tired tired & tired... woke up at the crack of dawn.. 5.45am! even earlier than a working day and its SAT! But it was nice, weather was good (though it looks a lil threatening early in the morning).. everyone's spirits were high.. been busy with meetings and co-ordination for the last 3 weeks.. finally the day arrives! This event was done in conjunction with Chao Yang School for special children.. so its for a good cause :) The kids enjoyed themselves.. with telematches... Happy Meals from McDonalds.. was all good..

Frigging tired now.. was running ard the entire morning co-ordinating food delivery & preparation... Bunz & Macs just cant seem to find their way to Botanical Gardens, Bukit Timah Carpark... sigh... wonder why do i always end up with the task of feeding ppl *ponders*

right, going for a long bath then head to dreamland... only had 3 hrs of sleep last nite.. conking soon...

blog bout BLUE CONCERT!!! later when my brain is in better condition...

moved me to tears...

met siying for lunch today... had a lovely time chit chatting at Juice Station.. munching on fruits, crackers & po luo paus.. teaching my dear gal how to use mascara gel & curler *shakes head* too bad lunch time was short...

she bought me a windchime... for my new room..

"Hope that whenever you are stressed or unhappy,
the sounds from the windchime can take your troubles away.....right out of the window!
Gone with the wind.........=)
And in return, brings you tranquility and peace......"

throat welled up with tears when i read the email after we got back to our offices... thanks gal.. *hugz* :)

on the move... again...

did i mention i'm moving? yes, again..

this time, to my godma's house.. & its just 4 storeys above.. 3 houses in 2 years.. yeah, 2 years to the dot! oh well... time to work my creative juices... room deco! Think it'll be a challenge this time coz the room i will be moving into would hold a different concept..

My present room... my nest, my haven.. painstakingly decorated and designed by yours truly... has the sweet, girly scent.. peachy brown walls, offset by white furnitures, rattan chair with sheepskin.. sweet pastel colors.. light brown wood.. my wardrobe, the pride of my room *heartaches*..
u get the drift.. gonna miss it so much.. only nested in it for 15 months..

the hours pouring over ikea magazines, color scheme books, room deco books from library, looking at ici color chips under different lights, many trips to ikea *thanks ant & yr trusty merc minibus!*

was sitting on my bed last night, looking at my wardrobe.. felt a pang.. know it sounds silly but have grown attached to it.. loadsa hardwork & money invested in it.. remembered how i used to sneak in while construction was still going on, to get measurements..

oh well, time to move on... on a brighter note, get to work my creative juices again.. a challenge awaits me! ;)

a replica of my old room or a completely different nest?

*sniff*

home today.. down with all the works, cold, cough, sore throat (i sound damn sexy lor..), bodyaches, feverish.. *groans* Surprised this hits me fast & hard.. i dun usually fall ill this quick.. Wud usually have sorethroat for about a week, cough for 2 weeks before all comes tumbling down.. This time, its a matter of days before i fell.. jeez, think my body's resistance is getting weak...

Slept the entire sunday away! Woke at 2pm, went for lunch.. slept again at 6.30.. woke at 8, then conked off again at 9pm! Woke up this morning feeling like i got ran over by a truck, gotta call in sick.. Thank God a clinic just opened near my place, didnt have to walk far.. Doc was amused when she heard about my profession..

doc: wat u working as?
me: admin, hr
doc: realy? i've seen quite a number of people from hr. Must be very stressful.
me: yeah, i just did my payroll last week & i got work to do when i reach home later.. laughs

Spent a good part of 3 hrs working on my SPP (Stock Purchase Plan - no energy to elaborate on it).. sigh..

Siying was sweet :) Got a sms from her...
"how are u feeling today? any better? told u not to go to the gym on fri..."
my dear gal, i catch no ball... gym = falling ill? *wink*.. very touched nonetheless... :)

Gotta start evaluating my diet, consuming too much junk food...

My 5 Rules!
1. More veg
2. More fruits
3. Less meat (red meat)
4. More water (dun u think 8 glasses is too much? the loo will be my 2nd home..)
5. No snacking / nibbling

think i gotta start evaluating pappe's diet too. She's been sleeping beside me & she keeps farting! & it stinks to the high heavens!


*feeling woozy, my comfy bed calls...

Hot Shots!

Alright, Presenting shots from our Gals Night Out! (at long last!) *dun drool*

ENJOY! :P



Siying, Jane & moi!


Ying Yan's happy grin... Smile Jane! dun frown...


3 beauties! Hahaha! Now, siying is going to 'love' me for this one! :D


taken from? the loo! now u know why gals take so long.. lol!


where's jo?! its the 7mth.. spooky.... Dangerous lady driver on the road! Fasten your seatbelts! yeah, we shld have snapped that merz logo ;P